2 pointsHi Eagleheart - I haven't been here in a while, but I read your post. I think when there is lots of shitty feelings flying around, they need to go somewhere. At the moment the shit is being aimed back at you. And that doesn't feel fair. I really am so sorry about your cat, what was his name? I think cats are choosy, so it must have felt wonderful to be loved by him, and have him by your side. My mental health team used to constantly be dropping or changing, exactly what we really don't need. I hope that it gets sorted soon, can you contact them to remind them you need a case worker.
Saharah Blue reacted to Eagleheart for a post in a topicI was exactly like you in previous relationships, going from adoring them to hating the sight of them and dumping them after about 6 months. UNTIL I met my husband. Don't get me wrong, I still have times when I can't bear the sight of him. But I accept that it's not him. It's me. My BPD playing up. And I just ride out the feelings and they do pass. He is the love of my life and I worship him . He is a lovely man who is so understanding of my issues. And for that reason, we work really well together. But you must come to a place of acceptance and honesty about your BPD. If you can do that, you CAN have long term relationships. I've been with my husband for 26 years now.