The "other" Realm

[budgie]

Wow,...this forum really need some picking up!!!!..hehehhe..anyway, dont read if religion triggers folks...somehow, all road leads to God.

*Sigh...yeah, i guess this is where I'll post. Sorta.

The OTHER Realm

Do u have the "OTHER" realm? Like I do?

I have sorta managed so far....no SI so long, like, 3 years?

Yeah. O'course the depressive thots still pop here and there

and paranoia shakes my stance once in a while

Still, overall I dug in and stand, daytime, conscious

BPDish sometimes maybe, but not really succumbering

like I used to, so easily, in the past.

This last year though, I have noticed, a change in "His" strategy

Whoever u may think He maybe....Yeah, from the OTHER realm

He gets me in my dreams, nightmares I should say

Oh yeah. He hurts those I love in this world to hurt me

Besides making me fearful, anxious, frightened

Its difficult to fight while u r sleeping, very difficult.

I wake up exhausted, physically, emotionally.

But thats all u can do u jerk.

I will not be defeated. No. I have come thus far.

I will go on, and only by His Will, in His time, will I be done.

It has been a difficult road. Many a times it had been lonely.

One lone streetlight, and me. But I know U r with me all the time.

Yes, all the time. I may not feel U, no. But, somehow, yes.

And that's that. That's all there is, afterall, yes. That's what's left.

Thank u.

[Tory]

((((Bud))) I dont really know what to say but wanted to let u know i read it! I often wake up exhausted cos of weird dreams and stuff and i am today so this reply isnt very good!

Take care

Tory xxx

[budgie]

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