My Recovery

[ragdoll]

well things have been going well for me at the moment and i want you all to know that. i know i had been up and down and all over the place and yes things are still on tender hooks as i change meds but things seem atm to be settling down. being physically ill helps because i get tired quicker and am sleeping more which is good and having a decent job also help because now i have more money to get about and do some things but i dread getting the phone call asking me to work. only because i think can i handle it and how am i going to find the home and this and that. because im new and going into ppls homes for the first time its all a new process for me and a struggle but i know for now im going to win. Befuddled this is the kick up the butt i was talking about. i also got myself back into uni for next year. its gonig to be a slow process getting there but all this work is going to be positive for me and head me on a road i thought not possible. yeah the guy stuff is in the way but i got one of them out of the way pretty easily, the one who treated me right is gone so im left down to the one i want and cant have to myself YET. i will happen soon. living in dreamland yes maybe but we'll see.

anyway i really just wanted you all to know that things are going ok i start seeing an eating disorders speciallitst on tuesday to see if its what i really want to do or to figure out how i can lose weight appropriatley not by starving myself or purging, im on a waiting list for a DBT coach so that will be brilliant i cant wait for that so i can once again get those skills under way as i know im not using them at all correctly and the six months of hell that i went through to learn them has gone to waste.

anyway as per usual ive babbled. gonna go now.

love yas all

bye

ragdoll

[Betsy]

raggy,

glad to hear you are doing better. i could tell by your posts that your mind was functioning better and things were coming together.

you have so much to give... its so good to have you back!

bets