ruffryder Posted October 22, 2014 Report Share Posted October 22, 2014 I have not really been around here much for a while, i pop in now and then to read some posts if im feeling really bad. iv been going to collage to study music. im learning to play the guitar and a bit of piano, producing music on a computer and music theory. im finding the stress of learning quite hard even though the collage is for people with issues so they are understanding, but i feel like its alot to take in my passion for music has faded and im only really doing it for something to do and i dont want to give up on this. iv cut a few people out of my life recently because they was not good for me and now im dealing with alot of loneliness and isolation. my moods are still always pretty low and i have this deep sad pain in my heart that i feel i just need to cry out but cant seem to. it makes me feel so tired im in a daze most of the time i just want to sleep but no amount is ever enough Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelyheartemma Posted October 23, 2014 Report Share Posted October 23, 2014 ((((ruffryder))))) it's good to see you back on the site but I'm sorry everything is not good. Studying things you are passionate about is difficult. It isn't so bad when you're teaching yourself because then you can follow your passions but when you are at a college it's more difficult because the teachers all want you to do it their way which is a problem with something creative like music where you're often wanting to do your own thing and experimenting a bit. Maybe something you could do is take some time each day to do music where you are in control of what you do? Try to keep your passion alive? I don't know if that would work but it is horrible when something you really love stops making you happy in the same way. It's good you've got rid of the bad people in your life but although I'm sure you're better without the bad things few people are all bad. I'm sure all these people gave you something positive even if it was only their company and it makes sense that you're missing that. Is there anyone you get on with at college? I know making friends isn't always easy, I've never been any good at it but maybe you will bond with someone. I really hope so. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Threemoons Posted October 23, 2014 Report Share Posted October 23, 2014 Hi Ruff, happy to have news from you even if it's not so good news. I echo what Emma told you. Sorry you're having difficulties at the moment. With love. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ruffryder Posted October 23, 2014 Author Report Share Posted October 23, 2014 thanks for the replys they mean alot it is a shame my passion has dropped i want to learn it so it comes natural to me and i dont want to pass up on learning new things its just so much music is so complicated but iv started on this path im not giving up. the people were not all bad no but they were bad for me and i was spending time with them so i wouldnt be alone and ended up doing things that were negative for me. iv been chatting to a guy in collage we are planning to meet up to jam on guitar but it hasnt happened yet maybe one day lol hope you are both well love back to you both xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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