SELFHATE Posted December 9, 2015 Report Share Posted December 9, 2015 My name is SELFHATE I was a member here before ...can never remember my username and passwordAnyway this me is I dont know weather to post this here or some where else I have BPD but av been lying about a few things for my attention i dont know why i been doing it ( only my husband knows about it )what it was is that i made up some stuff about abuse from a priest and some other things as well its turned out i was abused as a very young age by friends of the family and in my teens i dont know why i make things up i dont know what to do about Am Christian and i believe that am going to hell for lying to the people i lied to The priest died a few years back i never told anyone about the priest abusing me until i met my husband i think i was wanting to see if my husband really love me in some sort of sick way my husband says he forgives me and that i shouldn't worry about it but ii do worry I understand if you dont want a liar as a member Sorry Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jenny1471 Posted January 25, 2016 Report Share Posted January 25, 2016 Hi Welcome to the forum. Sorry for the delay in responding.. I think you have been very brave in sharing here and hope that it helped to share with others. I'm glad that you have a supportive husband. Have you ever been in therapy? I am asking because I too have also lied in the past.. therapy has really helped me understand why I told those lies. It isn't an easy journey but in my opinion definitely worth it. Hope you're still around here and get to read this response. Take good care Jenny Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HATE Posted August 9, 2016 Report Share Posted August 9, 2016 This was me i am SELFHATE i forgot my signing ins and had to make another account i keep forgetting my username and password sorry i have been hiding the truth from people going around acting because i need to to survive does this make me evil ? Am scared all the time now that someone will see me for what i am I want to self injure but my husband hidden the tools and will not give me them back i feel worse without it ...my husband wants me to stop the self hated of myself but he dont know who i really am here dont see me as evil he loves me I was getting therpy but am too scared to say anything about i want to drink and take drugs i need help sorry Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Faint Posted August 9, 2016 Report Share Posted August 9, 2016 1 hour ago, HATE said: This was me i am SELFHATE i forgot my signing ins and had to make another account i keep forgetting my username and password sorry i have been hiding the truth from people going around acting because i need to to survive does this make me evil ? Am scared all the time now that someone will see me for what i am I want to self injure but my husband hidden the tools and will not give me them back i feel worse without it ...my husband wants me to stop the self hated of myself but he dont know who i really am here dont see me as evil he loves me I was getting therpy but am too scared to say anything about i want to drink and take drugs i need help sorry THIS me sorry i keep forgetting passwords my brain dont work right Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kimboski Posted August 13, 2016 Report Share Posted August 13, 2016 Hello Faint, The fact you are being so open and honest here must mean something good? From my personal experience, I've always tested the people I love the most. almost as if i can't believe they love me. And yes, I've lied.......many, many times. But there is always hope....that has been shown to me here and with the loved ones I have actually opened up to. I really hope you get all the help you need. Kim Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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