Not Sure If its just part of my anxiety or something, but any thoughts appreciated!

[John Framo]

Okay so im 17 and have fallen victim to severe anxiety, moderately bad depression, mild hallucinations and pretty bad constant paranoia. Being that, i didnt know if any of those would play a part in something going on in my head. I basically have a voice in my head that sometimes argues my decisions and like i can talk to but it doesnt say anything back, but then it also speaks my own thoughts but it isnt them. it sounds confusing i know but im still struggling to find it out myself, i just wanted to know if anyone has experienced/experiencing the same thing, i do smoke a moderate amount of weed daily if that might matter. 

cheers for reading in advanced.

[walker]

hi and welcome

I would certainly suggest stopping the weed and seeing what happens

I don't have the experiences you write about, but would expect that taking any sort of recreational drugs will effect what is going on in your head - since that's the whole point of taking them isn't it?

 

hope this helps a little, sorry I cant help more, but others here probably can

[ForestP]

Have a read of this thread:

I would say to you what I said to David who seemed to be having similar problems to you.

I get a similar thing go on in my head. In my case it is because I hold incompatible viewpoints and believe in conflicting things (what I have chosen to believe in and what I was made/told to believe at an early age). The only way my mind can process that is by splitting my thoughts and feelings into what are almost multiple versions of myself - the version of me that was created by my childhood and the version that I created because it's what I want to be.

I'm working through it though and things are getting better, but yea, if I were you my first step would be to get off the drugs.

Forest

 

[walker]

ah

actually reading Forest's reply made me stop for a moment as I do have very similar

I often tell people 'my head is telling me ....' and I don't hear voices but it feels like there are other people inside my head who don't agree or have different opinions and needs and are of different ages

when I am more unwell, I find it very difficult to use 'i' and refer to us as 'we' as it feels like there are several people all 'talking' and I don't always know who is in charge

one psychologist I saw described it as fragmenting and my mh team know that it gets far worse when things get bad and we all get lost

[ForestP]

Yea, saying I hear voices is a bit of a stretch actually, they are more like "loud thoughts". Like Walker mine is worse when I am going through bad patches, I'm actually on a good patch at the moment and I have my head almost to myself....