I Don't Even Know

[notthatkid]

I have tons of symptoms but I can't find any disorder to match them. I have severely obsessive daydreaming where I spend the majority of my time awake making these fantasies. I have social anxiety talking to anyone, especially girls, and it's hard to open up to people. I constantly put on different personalities to friends, family, and when I'm alone, and it's become such a habit that I can't control how I act anymore. I constantly assume things, and stick to whatever I decide even when I know I'm wrong. I talk to myself like I'm a different person when I'm alone, and think to myself like I'm a different person when I'm around people. Sometimes I just mutter things. I have these whole conversations in my head, not like it's different people, but like I'm controlling different angles of thought at the same time(that's the best I can explain it). I'm constantly masturbating at night, sometimes to porn, sometimes to sexual daydreams, and I get these random erections for no reason in the day. I have can go at it 5 times in a row, or 10 in a day(until my dick hurts). I'm constantly second guessing myself and my decisions, then second guessing that second guessing, and so on, so I'm indecisive. I think it's because I'm used to thinking from different angles and having strong opinions on issues for no reason so that's me deciding my opinion somehow. What the fuck wrong with me