chaaar94 Posted December 14, 2014 Report Share Posted December 14, 2014 First of all, I am awful at making decisions!!! I have been on an acute ward for 6 months and last week was transferred to a trauma clinic in Oxford...this place is nothing like what was told to me when I made the decision of coming here. I was originally given the choice of choosing this place, or a DBT personality disorder unit in Milton Keynes. I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder . After being on an acute ward for so long I have become dependant on other people so that I will always have someone to talk to. Now I have moved to Oxford there is only 1 member of staff on at any one time and they are NEVER available to talk to. I was told that this clinic in Oxford will support me with my self harming, however I have been told that they will kick me out if I hurt myself again. All they say is "stop doing it"......That really doesn't help. There is also way too many temptations for self harm here, nothing is shut away and we live in complete independence. There is everything you can think of to hurt yourself here with and also because I now have to self medicate I am finding it really difficult not to overdose. It might be too much of a big leap for me coming here from an acute psychiatric ward... Since moving here, my self harming has increased to more than 2 times a day and my suicidal thoughts have gotten bad again. I feel as though I am seriously back tracking through the progress that I have made in the last 6 months. Here they offer EMDR therapy and equine therapy. But I cant start any kind of therapy until after a month of being here, in that time I'm also not allowed to see any of my family or friends. I just want to get better.... In the Milton Keynes unit there is always someone that I can talk to, they offer DBT Therapy which is proven to help borderline patients the most. They say that they will accept and acknowledge my self harm but also help me to over come it. There is a gym, pottery room, sports facilities, outdoor space and people my own age who have similar experiences to me. However it will take a year in admission...there are a lot of restrictions, BUT THIS MEANS IT IS SAFE! Here in Oxford there are horses, nice people and independence. However there is barely any support, self harm is a taboo subject, I feel suicidal again, and its not restricted what so ever.... so is this really the safest place to start therapy? My question is.... Should I move to the DBT specialised personality disorder unit in Milton Keynes, or stay here in Oxford? Thank you! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kara. Posted December 14, 2014 Report Share Posted December 14, 2014 Can I ask you, why did you choose the Trauma clinic and not the DBt clinic in the first place? And did you have help making that decision? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chaaar94 Posted December 15, 2014 Author Report Share Posted December 15, 2014 Mainly because I thought I was ready to make this step into independence and I think I got carried away by the fact that its a big house with horses.... silly I know! And my Mum and Dad preferred this place so I just went with their decision really. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kitsune Posted December 15, 2014 Report Share Posted December 15, 2014 What do you think the right decision for you is? Nobody should make the decision for you, it's about you taking responsibility for your own wellbeing and owning your own decisions, also it's ok to change your mind! The place in milton keynes sounds like it is specialised to deal with PD's and the plac you're at now not so much so they'll probably be able to deal with your SH issues better than the place you're at now xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kara. Posted December 15, 2014 Report Share Posted December 15, 2014 chaar that's so lovely that you can be honest. I think that it is important to be honest and be as much in touch with what you might want as possible. Maybe this will sound patronizing but I would like to encourage you to read your post and see if you have answered your own question in there.Maybe it would help if you imagine that I have written the post. What do you think I would be saying if I had written your post? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Br0kenW1ngs Posted January 26, 2015 Report Share Posted January 26, 2015 Hi, Did you make a decision? How are things going? Would you have the option of going to Milton Keynes and doing DBT etc then returning to Oxford when you were in a better position to be independent? Going from an acute ward to having to effectively cope on your own is a big step, if the self harm isn't under control and you are at risk you need to be somewhere that is more supportive. Don't do it for your parents, you need to do what's right for you. At the end of the day they will want whatever is best for you..... Good luck Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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