wednesday Posted January 15, 2008 Report Share Posted January 15, 2008 What was the basic belief that you had that made you develop bpd?My psych says it always starts with feeling different, but not in a good way.However there should be a belief about yourself that is more specific than this. There should be a conclusion that you came to (mistakenly) as a very small child.Have any of you come across this and figured out what it is? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tiellover Posted January 15, 2008 Report Share Posted January 15, 2008 I won't be loved by anyone unless I'm perfect. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tray Posted January 15, 2008 Report Share Posted January 15, 2008 i wasnt wanted i should have been a boymy parents only got married cause i was expectedi'm not worthy of anyone's loveim nobody Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nightvision Posted January 15, 2008 Report Share Posted January 15, 2008 other people will always be more important than me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rebeccaborderline Posted January 15, 2008 Report Share Posted January 15, 2008 that my status was lower than the pedigree dogs in the houseI could be hurt and abused with impunity as I was worthless, less than humanthe abuse was known, but I was not protected from it, this means I was not worth protectingless than humanrebeccaborderline Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vorpalblade Posted January 15, 2008 Report Share Posted January 15, 2008 that i was a bad child who deserved to be punished. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
InterruptedHappiness Posted January 15, 2008 Report Share Posted January 15, 2008 lol im debating whether or not this is a great topic..but here goes."that im not an equal"" I have victim tatooed on my head""Im not worth anyones breath" Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Carole Posted January 15, 2008 Report Share Posted January 15, 2008 The constant feeling that I am a bad person and that I don't deserve anything nice or good. Not even life. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
trinityjlw Posted January 15, 2008 Report Share Posted January 15, 2008 that i was always 'different' to other people, uglier, fatter, more stupid, just not worthy of anyone's attention or time Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
emergingtoo Posted January 15, 2008 Report Share Posted January 15, 2008 There's something wrong with meNothing I ever do is good enoughI am not loveableI must act happy no matter how I feel inside Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lily-Bee Posted January 16, 2008 Report Share Posted January 16, 2008 Interesting questionfor meEventhough I am an adult now I still believe what I learned as a child that people will hurt you, that I cant take care of me but the grown ups dont care and so the world is a very dangerous,scary,lonely place!!Lilly Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AndyL Posted January 16, 2008 Report Share Posted January 16, 2008 That everything I do is wrong, everything I feel is wrong and I should be punished for all of it. As a child I used to lie in bed at night willing myself to change so I wouldn't be beaten all the time. Never worked. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wednesday Posted January 16, 2008 Author Report Share Posted January 16, 2008 Thank you for the replies, my psych seems to have been right.I'm still searching for my basic truth but most of these strike a chord with me.The challenge is to realise that you were completely wrong when you came to these conclusions. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rain Posted January 16, 2008 Report Share Posted January 16, 2008 Nobody cared or had time for me. I was left on my own all my life.I feel for the little child in all of us, this is so upsetting! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dolita Posted January 16, 2008 Report Share Posted January 16, 2008 that whatever i do, people will be judging me and laughing at methat i'm disgusting Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wednesday Posted January 17, 2008 Author Report Share Posted January 17, 2008 I wonder if every one of them come back to a feeling that we are not wanted. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
horgz Posted January 18, 2008 Report Share Posted January 18, 2008 damn it i didnt mean to post that?! now i cant delete the post Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fucktheworld Posted January 22, 2008 Report Share Posted January 22, 2008 as i was reading this post i was thinking...these are all the things i think...it didn't depress me, it helped me see i am not alone...this isn't exclusive to me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kay Posted January 22, 2008 Report Share Posted January 22, 2008 as i was reading this post i was thinking...these are all the things i think...it didn't depress me, it helped me see i am not alone...this isn't exclusive to meIm glad it helped you not feel alone. Because, youre not. For me it was:You did something wrong, youre unlovableYou tried to be different then me (my mom) therefore youre wrong, bad, unlovable.Sex = love Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fredy Posted January 22, 2008 Report Share Posted January 22, 2008 Whatever I do is wrong and never good enough.I'm a bad person, I need to be good and need to be perfect. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hmmm Posted January 22, 2008 Report Share Posted January 22, 2008 I am dysfunctional. I cannot go about life like other people. I am different. That's how mine started. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pynn Posted January 23, 2008 Report Share Posted January 23, 2008 I have to be prettier, I have to act in a certain way, I have to wear certain clothes or else I will never be accepted.I'm a bad person.if a man has sex with me that means I'm loveable, pretty, worthy.I'm never ever good enough.People always think bad of me and laugh about me behind my back.Everything about my body is disgusting.not necessarily in that order. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wordsmithy Posted January 23, 2008 Report Share Posted January 23, 2008 no one ever wanted me. no one will want me.edit- i read back on thiese replies and i see other people hold the not wanted belief as a truth too.thats scary. i dont why. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
full blown sarcasm Posted April 7, 2008 Report Share Posted April 7, 2008 -Every bad thing that happens is my fault.-I'm not wanted and the world is better off without me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
denise24 Posted April 7, 2008 Report Share Posted April 7, 2008 Im not wanted by anyone Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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