walker Posted October 13, 2009 Report Share Posted October 13, 2009 alone in my head Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ruth24 Posted October 13, 2009 Report Share Posted October 13, 2009 Feel like shit (physically). horrible cold. Wanted to spend day in bed but collected kids from school and got on a bus to sainsburys. Needed bread milk etc. Spent over £200!!! Bought the kids new duvet sets, clothes,got an excellent winter hat for my daughter and a new coat she loves, new clock radio, an electric drill??!! wtf? yeah, went a bit crazy, but we all had fun :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
roxy222 Posted October 14, 2009 Report Share Posted October 14, 2009 physicall lots of pain and tension tired, as allways, emotional, fragile lots of strange feelings with the spacey stuff today, staying more presnt with it all and that feels strange, a new sort of less spacey feeling that feels alot like i9ts higher up in my head, and although its less spacey it 'feels' more cause i am more present to experience that feeling Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted October 14, 2009 Report Share Posted October 14, 2009 desparately low Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
roxy222 Posted October 15, 2009 Report Share Posted October 15, 2009 ((((walker)))) i feel better, despite not sleeping last nite and being in bad pain today, i feel cheerier at the mo Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dice Posted October 15, 2009 Report Share Posted October 15, 2009 ... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
roxy222 Posted October 15, 2009 Report Share Posted October 15, 2009 fragile, vulnerable, wounded and hurting but safe and loved also Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
x-Bliss-x Posted October 15, 2009 Report Share Posted October 15, 2009 Low :( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
paulina Posted October 16, 2009 Report Share Posted October 16, 2009 Very bad, confussed and sad. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Saharah Blue Posted October 16, 2009 Report Share Posted October 16, 2009 wow! good, I feel really good. I wish I could be like this always. This is the good side of BPD, happiness is just as intense as all the other emotions. I feel even secretly gleeful, that I get to experience it more heighten than your average person. I'm so god damn special.....lol. YES! more please. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
x-Bliss-x Posted October 16, 2009 Report Share Posted October 16, 2009 I'm feeling really down at the moment. I just want to burst into tears but it seems they just wont come. :( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
siofra Posted October 16, 2009 Report Share Posted October 16, 2009 Feeling very up and down today. I start to feel good then i try to figure out why im feeling ok, and think about it so much I feel crap! UGH!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HayleyINTERRUPTED Posted October 17, 2009 Report Share Posted October 17, 2009 I feel hyper today =] Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Data Posted October 17, 2009 Report Share Posted October 17, 2009 Confused, slightly dissilusioned and with a sore stomach. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted October 17, 2009 Report Share Posted October 17, 2009 depressed just more and more and feeling like i am the cause of all hurt Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
x-Bliss-x Posted October 17, 2009 Report Share Posted October 17, 2009 Blaaaaaaah Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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roxy222 Posted October 18, 2009 Report Share Posted October 18, 2009 uncomfotable iv not been dissociating as much as usual, iv been staying more with it despite things being difficult, this is progress but it feels uncomfotable, to the extent i feel physically sick and dizzy, and i dont like it Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted October 18, 2009 Report Share Posted October 18, 2009 roxy xxxxxxxxxx feeling horribly numb scarily close to nothing matters Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
piuma Posted October 19, 2009 Author Report Share Posted October 19, 2009 cant sleep. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dice Posted October 19, 2009 Report Share Posted October 19, 2009 I can't sleep too and I have to be up at 6am because I am lookin after a little girl today ALLDAY I am goin to be fucked ... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CrippleAndStarfish Posted October 19, 2009 Report Share Posted October 19, 2009 Feel like i'm so close to losing it. Washing machine just broke, with a full load of half-washed washing in it, and Logan only has 3 pairs of pants clean and dry, but he needs 4, for playgroup this afternoon. The dog ran away at about 6am, when my stupid mother left all the doors/safety gates wide open while she went to put something in the outside bin, and he still hasn't come back. I had the most horrible nightmares last night, and am still shaking and feeling very on-edge now, over 4 hours later. My stomach had eased up for a while. Not anymore. Can hardly move as my stomach has literally just knotted so hard that i can't straighten up. God knows how i'm even going to pick myself up off the sofa, let alone get a troublesome, hyperactive (nearly)3-year old bundle of energy out of the house, onto the bus, and to playgroup, without collapsing in tears. Everything just makes me cry, too - I feel so utterly pathetic. Can't cope with this at all. Everything is just either forcing me to tears, or is the cause of me screaming and shouting and hacking my arms up again. Feel so tempted, trying to fight it, cause i know it's not really what i want, not forever... - But the temptation of some real, proper time-out, where i can finally allow, FORCE, my body and mind to go into standby, is so very strong. And stupidly, my mum left the medicine-safe key lying around, too, so i've pocketed it. Just in case. Stupid woman she is for thinking i was okay, i was better. Poor, poor idiot. Most of the time, i hate her. But right now, i just feel sorry for her. She thought i was coping. I wish that for once she was right. But i'm not. I'm just not! Fuck this. I've said too much already. Sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
roxy222 Posted October 19, 2009 Report Share Posted October 19, 2009 alone and scared couple of closest friend going through real rough times, and im picking up the slack as usual, and yet so much stuff going on in my head... worried bout friends v much. tired too Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Myers Posted October 19, 2009 Report Share Posted October 19, 2009 Working ... I'm having one of those bored of life' moments. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Aneurysm Posted October 19, 2009 Report Share Posted October 19, 2009 tired. in need of mind-altering substances, paha. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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