wordsmithy Posted March 31, 2010 Report Share Posted March 31, 2010 You know, I spent the last few hours thinking, emailing and calling people, because I wanted to get off my a*se and do something like going back to school, going to a Mind centre or volunteering. But it turns out the harder you try not to be a parasite of society and force yourself to look for something to occupy your days, the harder they will spit back in your damned face. Hell, at least I know when I drink the ability to succeed at getting drunk is around about a 100% fricking percent, compared to sheer hopelessness of firstly trying to fight your fears and secondly having to wait week after week for a letter from a certain MH day centre to acknowledge your existence and arrange an appointment to see you. Why bother? :angry: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Saharah Blue Posted March 31, 2010 Report Share Posted March 31, 2010 like it will all be okay in the end. Sah Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ubix Posted April 1, 2010 Report Share Posted April 1, 2010 In limbo with anxiety and fear Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wordsmithy Posted April 1, 2010 Report Share Posted April 1, 2010 12 days, 12 day, til I have art therapy. That is too long, the hours are long, long, long. Thats how I feel. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dani Posted April 1, 2010 Report Share Posted April 1, 2010 fine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Boy_Blue Posted April 1, 2010 Report Share Posted April 1, 2010 I feel good today. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ubix Posted April 1, 2010 Report Share Posted April 1, 2010 Well as the day has progressed i'm feeling mentally a bit stronger Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
suzieq Posted April 2, 2010 Report Share Posted April 2, 2010 For the first time in months I actually feel ok. Had interview today which went really well. Thinking positive. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Villan Posted April 3, 2010 Report Share Posted April 3, 2010 good... got the day to myself today - have cleaned kitchen and bathroom - laundry is in machine, house aired (i am usually never in in daylight to open windows for long!) tyres and oil checked on the mx5, and i am just about to take a naughty glass of wine upstairs to the bath and have a long soak... this afternoon i may(!) hoover and dust rest of house... no promises tho lol... xxxxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
emmie18 Posted April 3, 2010 Report Share Posted April 3, 2010 Great Idea. I agree sometimes you dont want to have to write a whole post but just say how you are feeling. Today i am feeling okay, bit pissed off with myself for being me and pre-occupied and worried with thoughts. Hope everyone else is okay Take Care xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lapwing Posted April 3, 2010 Report Share Posted April 3, 2010 Fed up with mood swings and feeling generally more depressed than not. Grumpy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Saharah Blue Posted April 3, 2010 Report Share Posted April 3, 2010 Avoidant of life, just want to sit here and gaze at my navel. Afraid to do my shopping. Sah Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
suzieq Posted April 4, 2010 Report Share Posted April 4, 2010 Complete shit!!. Amazing how things can change over a period of 24 hours. Just want to curl up in a ball and hide from the world Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
roxy222 Posted April 4, 2010 Report Share Posted April 4, 2010 strugglings and feeling bad, but have alot of faith it will pass Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dotlink Posted April 5, 2010 Report Share Posted April 5, 2010 I love this idea here of a topic just to post a mood instead of writing a whole long rant , as i usually do Today well..... out of 10 id give it a 4. I like to get up early but didnt wake up till midday (some peoples idea of heaven i know) but studying didnt really get going today. Today aswell since it was a bad start started thinking about things that really have made this day pretty well poor. Day has gone really fast aswell , whole day has gone and ive done nothing. Tomorrow was the day my uuuuhhh 'ex' was supposed to be coming down to my house but due to things ranted on & on about on here before she wont be coming down here now, which makes tomorrow extremely difficult so im hoping something happens tomorrow that keeps me occupied, nice bit of overtime in the morning and then an afternoon of study will hopefully work :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
skp67 Posted April 5, 2010 Report Share Posted April 5, 2010 HATE MYSELF UPSET MY HUSBAND OOOOOO AND NOW I AM SHOUTING Sorry My day has beeen a complete nightmare need another brain to store the information that has overloaded this one,......frazzle frazzle fry fry Been at the hospital A&E twice, so that says it all Scally x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lapwing Posted April 6, 2010 Report Share Posted April 6, 2010 Feeling guilty for staying off work again, but going to do some work at home to make up for it Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
emptiness Posted April 6, 2010 Report Share Posted April 6, 2010 feel like crap! :'( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
roxy222 Posted April 6, 2010 Report Share Posted April 6, 2010 bad, teary Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DaisyChain Posted April 6, 2010 Report Share Posted April 6, 2010 Completely lost, in my self created mess ((((roxy)))) xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
roxy222 Posted April 6, 2010 Report Share Posted April 6, 2010 ((((daisy))))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AdaLovelace Posted April 6, 2010 Report Share Posted April 6, 2010 Numb, depressed, I feel like I want to hang myself. Basically a journal entry I wrote on vf about half an hour ago explains it Urgh today I just feel, empty. As if everything in my life is not real, like i'm just looking on in the third person prospective as if this isn't me, this isn't my life. I just feel like committing suicide. I'm not going to do it so if any of you is reading this don't worry about it because it's not going to happen. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted April 7, 2010 Report Share Posted April 7, 2010 rejected, abandoned, confused. but coping Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
susan_kelly Posted April 7, 2010 Report Share Posted April 7, 2010 Hey hope u don't mind me joining in. Today I woke up sad and got angry because everyone at work seems so happy and normal and I struggle to cope with my thoughts. I was relieved to get home so that I could cry in private. Then I fed my cat and felt happy because the cute fluffy little thing really relies on me and trusts me. Plus you guys seem so normal on here I feel right at home. xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
roxy222 Posted April 7, 2010 Report Share Posted April 7, 2010 different, a freak, ruined Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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