stardust1982 Posted May 12, 2010 Report Share Posted May 12, 2010 feeling very insecure but also very excited as my sister is having a baby in november (after trying for a long time) and......i move into my very own studio flat this week all to myself i'm so happy :-) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
starryeyesee Posted May 12, 2010 Report Share Posted May 12, 2010 cooking but i don't know why.hopeless and wanting to od again like i did last night and the night before that..... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wordsmithy Posted May 12, 2010 Report Share Posted May 12, 2010 I feel miserable. I know that I do have AVPD, BPD and depersonalization disorder, but this does not make me feel better because I dont think that they are real diseases like schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. I am doomed to live in misery. Nothing will get better, no words will change that, nothing. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xkayleighx Posted May 13, 2010 Report Share Posted May 13, 2010 im in limbo right now... im happy that today im going out with a friend and tommorrow im doing the photo shoot for the papers, but at same time i still feel alone and unloved... positive things are happening but i still feel low.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Girl_Interrupted(1988) Posted May 13, 2010 Report Share Posted May 13, 2010 Tired and feeling a bit sad. hopefully today I can enjoy myself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Brokenbutterfly Posted May 13, 2010 Report Share Posted May 13, 2010 Am ok today, bit love sick.. Nervousness in my tummy feeling but am doing ok :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
barry28 Posted May 13, 2010 Report Share Posted May 13, 2010 Feeling ashamed of who i am, and very alone. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
canadianbumble Posted May 13, 2010 Report Share Posted May 13, 2010 Oh speedy Gonzalez Sp? My teacher used to do that. Hum in a bit of a panic but masquerading as totally competent. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
just.me Posted May 13, 2010 Report Share Posted May 13, 2010 I feel what I can only class as *normal* for me. Have college tonight and am looking forward to putting my face on, and letting the real me out to play. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
barry28 Posted May 14, 2010 Report Share Posted May 14, 2010 Awful, Just trying to put on s happyish face, although i'm no good at that. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wordsmithy Posted May 14, 2010 Report Share Posted May 14, 2010 :) I finally received a reply from the MH day centre that my psych referred me to after about 3 months of waiting! Its great. I don't wanna think about the anxiety of actually going yet, I just want to feel good that at least now I can have something that is better than having zilch to do all day. :D Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dani411 Posted May 15, 2010 Report Share Posted May 15, 2010 this is a great idea =) not feeling too shit hot today, woke up feeling okay. now i just feel down again =( this bouncing around on the roller coaster of emotions is getting tedious... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Katey Posted May 15, 2010 Report Share Posted May 15, 2010 I went for a long walk today and really enjoyed it. I am not a great fan of exercise and don't do nearly enough but I like walking and it does make you feel so much better. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Silverwolf Posted May 16, 2010 Report Share Posted May 16, 2010 Feeling quite rejected as went to see about poss getting mortgage or at least introduction/summary to how they work and once the guy realised we didn't have enough deposit he just sort of stopped and was trying to end convo for us to leave. Also he kept looking at the scars on my arm, so I ended up hiding it under the desk and pulling my sleave down. (They're not new but it made feel quite judged) :( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
barry28 Posted May 16, 2010 Report Share Posted May 16, 2010 In turmoil about many things, not sure how to behave or what i think. Going slightly crazy and feeling very irrational and impulsive Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
barry28 Posted May 17, 2010 Report Share Posted May 17, 2010 Very detached from everyone. I stood in the middle of town today and watched all the people walking past and felt utterly alone. Very strange. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dice Posted May 18, 2010 Report Share Posted May 18, 2010 Confused so much :\ , Feel sick and got bad tummy cramps ... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Silverwolf Posted May 18, 2010 Report Share Posted May 18, 2010 Had strong sh urges today but didn't act on them which was good. But felt very stressed with work everything going too fast and feeling very muddled and confused. :( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
suzieq Posted May 19, 2010 Report Share Posted May 19, 2010 Feel pretty ok for a change. Got a new car yesterday so am a bit like a kid with a new toy at the moment. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Brokenbutterfly Posted May 19, 2010 Report Share Posted May 19, 2010 Today I feel scared, perplexed.. And tired! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xkayleighx Posted May 20, 2010 Report Share Posted May 20, 2010 today im happy, which makes a change, but feeling very torn. i have £20 to last until next wed and not sure if to save to get cigs etc or go out and get stuff for new fish tank lol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Corpsewithpulse Posted May 20, 2010 Report Share Posted May 20, 2010 Been up for a couple of hours and still nekky / in dressing gown. Have things to do but unsure if it's mega comfy bed or general diddums stopping me from getting on with said things. Prolly both Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dani411 Posted May 20, 2010 Report Share Posted May 20, 2010 feel like shit, lonely angry... but have no time to feel... or rest =( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
stardust1982 Posted May 20, 2010 Report Share Posted May 20, 2010 chilling out today in my new home .....finally got here Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wordsmithy Posted May 20, 2010 Report Share Posted May 20, 2010 I am having a crappy day. I went to the MH day centre place (first week) and no spoke to me. Which actually was my fault as I didnt make an attempt to speak to anyone. When I left I just walked home feeling upset and weepy. Wasn't good at all. What am I here, why am I still alive, why I still push through day after day when it all seems so absurd? There is nothing good about me. Nothing. :( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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