carlylight1 Posted September 20, 2011 Report Share Posted September 20, 2011 depressed Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted September 20, 2011 Report Share Posted September 20, 2011 been out, was awful, and awful realising how paranoid and conspicuous i felt. probably best not to go out when feeling like this. meant to be doing stuff this week friends bday tomorrow. can't go it would just put me on a huge downer. meant to be seeing g on thursday. that would be a tiny bit easier but stil will be too much if mood stays like this. why the fuck do i plan things. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catsmother21 Posted September 20, 2011 Report Share Posted September 20, 2011 Feel emotion for a bit and then nothing and then emotion and then nothing. Can't sleep - stopped eating again. Worried about hubby, worried about so many things. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Saharah Blue Posted September 21, 2011 Report Share Posted September 21, 2011 tired bur proud of myself Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catsmother21 Posted September 21, 2011 Report Share Posted September 21, 2011 Headache and scared what will go through my head today and how I will cope with it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted September 21, 2011 Report Share Posted September 21, 2011 todays outing went a bit better. still got the anxiety but thats always there afterwards-did it go ok? did i say the right things?,etc. the after effects are a lot worse than getting out in the first place! but it went a bit better and am trying to tell myself that whatever little things happen whether right or wrong to my mind they are tiny, don't have any big consequences and really don't matter in the grand scheme of things. why does everything mean so much!? tiny little things that shouldn't matter at all. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Saharah Blue Posted September 21, 2011 Report Share Posted September 21, 2011 Maybe just accepting that they do matter to you, and let the judgement part go, rather than getting knotted up in forcing yourself to think, "right" reactions. Well done on getting out. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Saharah Blue Posted September 21, 2011 Report Share Posted September 21, 2011 If I am honest I feel a smidgen of rejection, and unacknowledged. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted September 21, 2011 Report Share Posted September 21, 2011 ((((sah)))) i hope its not here. i was doing my blog and only just saw this. but ty for the encouragement xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catsmother21 Posted September 22, 2011 Report Share Posted September 22, 2011 ((sah)) hope you're OK xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catsmother21 Posted September 22, 2011 Report Share Posted September 22, 2011 Worn out and worried about what happened last night. MiftRinifex 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Data Posted September 22, 2011 Report Share Posted September 22, 2011 Nervous. I've got nothing to do at work and I'm worried about losing my job. I had an email from uni about my extension and I think my heart missed a beat when I opened it. But it still didn't have the decision. Thing is, I am desperate for the decision, but I want the right decision... GIVE ME A 12 MONTH EXTENSION !!! Nervous about going home. Not sure how things will be with my wife, I think she is worried about me. Hoping my son won't have been playing up again. Desparate for a drink. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CrippleAndStarfish Posted September 23, 2011 Report Share Posted September 23, 2011 I'm not feeling too bad in general, my tattoo is bothering me though as is still tender, and i'm full of cold and it's a bad day for aches and cramps. Managed to get into town for a few bits and bobs earlier on, and have spent since about 2pm curled up on sofa watching episode after episode of House. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted September 23, 2011 Report Share Posted September 23, 2011 low but not at rock bottom. need to try some distraction hopefully will stop mood going too far down. can't seem to reply to peoples posts much or read them properly its just not fitting into place and its quite frustrating. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catsmother21 Posted September 24, 2011 Report Share Posted September 24, 2011 Head not working. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted September 24, 2011 Report Share Posted September 24, 2011 up, down, up, down..... but right now feeling more positive :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catsmother21 Posted September 25, 2011 Report Share Posted September 25, 2011 Slept for 12 hours last night!!! and I'm sure I'll feel better for it once I've woken up a bit more. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marc-74 Posted September 25, 2011 Report Share Posted September 25, 2011 infanitly better than those few hours last night walker 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catsmother21 Posted September 25, 2011 Report Share Posted September 25, 2011 Achey and headachey and can't seem to come round from last night's sleep fest :( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted September 25, 2011 Report Share Posted September 25, 2011 a mess Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catsmother21 Posted September 26, 2011 Report Share Posted September 26, 2011 Hopeful. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
defying_gravity Posted September 27, 2011 Report Share Posted September 27, 2011 scared Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Data Posted September 27, 2011 Report Share Posted September 27, 2011 Anxious, guilty, embarrased, ashamed Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catsmother21 Posted September 27, 2011 Report Share Posted September 27, 2011 Tired but OK in myself and pleased with myself for going out to the local town centre for a bit :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Saharah Blue Posted September 27, 2011 Report Share Posted September 27, 2011 little more to the normal side, with bubbling avoidance lurking within. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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