Saharah Blue Posted October 5, 2011 Report Share Posted October 5, 2011 hurt Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
indie22 Posted October 5, 2011 Report Share Posted October 5, 2011 someone just pull the trigger. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelyheartemma Posted October 6, 2011 Report Share Posted October 6, 2011 ((((((((((hugs)))))))))) for everyone who feels bad I feel tired ill and headachey, the doctor said the treatment wouldnt make me feel worse but i had a long and difficult journey to get to the hospital, i'm probably still getting withdrawal symptoms from the tablets i had to stop taking and i also wasnt allowed to take some of my other tablets yesterday. so thats probably why i don't feel good Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catsmother21 Posted October 6, 2011 Report Share Posted October 6, 2011 Sneezy, cold and nauseous I really don't want to come down with anything because it will put my post viral fatigue recovery back by weeks maybe months :( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
drybones Posted October 7, 2011 Report Share Posted October 7, 2011 :wacko: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Benway Posted October 7, 2011 Report Share Posted October 7, 2011 Hurt, ostracised, hated, paranoid (or just being realistic) that ppl are talking about me in r/l, accused (wrongly) , angry, small, useless, helpless. WRONGED and unnassertive and fucking stupid. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Saharah Blue Posted October 7, 2011 Report Share Posted October 7, 2011 ((((kit))))) *I like you in a RL kind of way Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Benway Posted October 7, 2011 Report Share Posted October 7, 2011 Thank you ((sah)) Just tryin to plod on & not fall apart. This would have been a biggie if it had happenned a year ago. Looked at some photos of you & I earlier , made me smile. I love that castle so much, since i was tiny it has seemed magical. I know i could sleep, but will feel totally alone up in bed, maybe let the kits sleep in my room tonight. all xxx Saharah Blue 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
stjaninaro Posted October 9, 2011 Report Share Posted October 9, 2011 Stupidly happy and excited. And very, very drunk (2 bottles of champagne and 4 red bulls before 10am) Sebastian Vettel - Back to back double World Champion! Thanks Seb <3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catsmother21 Posted October 9, 2011 Report Share Posted October 9, 2011 Managed to keep myself going and got some stuff done - put summer clothes away and winter ones out - glad that's sorted was playing on my mind. Lots of cross stitch which helped me to chill out and now I think a snooze is in order :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted October 9, 2011 Report Share Posted October 9, 2011 not sure, was suicidal a couple of hours ago and convinced it was the only way. and now not sure not thinking or feeing anything really i think it must be a good thing that thoughts aren't gripping so tightly. but it doesn't make sense how its one way and then another and then nothing and no idea what will come next. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catsmother21 Posted October 10, 2011 Report Share Posted October 10, 2011 Confused, really confused. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catsmother21 Posted October 11, 2011 Report Share Posted October 11, 2011 (edited) Wide a bleedin' wake after 4 hours of chronic pain down both legs. 100mg of tramadol and 50mg of diclofenac didn't even touch it but at least I was kinda chilled out while I laid there in agony!! S'OK now, think I must have trapped a nerve or something but it was horrible. So sleep pattern is out of whack again. Edited October 11, 2011 by catsmother21 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted October 11, 2011 Report Share Posted October 11, 2011 full of a cold-sneezing, eyes won't stop watering and head all stuffy. its yuk having a cold but i think keep needing to blow my nose is distracting me a bit from being as depressed. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted October 12, 2011 Report Share Posted October 12, 2011 feeling ok. it makes no sense. feel very weird that i'm ok- did that horrible week really happen? whys it suddenly gone. am glad i feel better but very, very confused and uneasy about how it can be there so strongly and then go. feel like a fraud for getting all the support from the forum and getting an urgent appointment to see the pdoc. need to have a think about what to do about the appt. if i was like this y'day i wouldn't have booked it so don't know what to do. i can't relate to how i felt a day or so ago with the cutting, tablets and bad urges. how can it be real then when its not there now. feeling ok now makes it seem not real and invalidates that it happened Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catsmother21 Posted October 12, 2011 Report Share Posted October 12, 2011 feeling ok. it makes no sense. feel very weird that i'm ok- did that horrible week really happen? whys it suddenly gone. am glad i feel better but very, very confused and uneasy about how it can be there so strongly and then go. feel like a fraud for getting all the support from the forum and getting an urgent appointment to see the pdoc. need to have a think about what to do about the appt. if i was like this y'day i wouldn't have booked it so don't know what to do. i can't relate to how i felt a day or so ago with the cutting, tablets and bad urges. how can it be real then when its not there now. feeling ok now makes it seem not real and invalidates that it happened I am so pleased that you are feeling better and that's the way it goes sometimes. You can be feeling really really ill and then boom you're ok again. It completely does my head in sometimes but please don't feel invalidated, it did happen and was very real. If I were you, I would still go to the emergency appt so that they know just how ill you have been. Hope feeling good lasts xx carlylight1 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted October 14, 2011 Report Share Posted October 14, 2011 ok-ish. not very depressed but very un-real feeling and cut off. done some cleaning i thought it might be grounding but no. reading seems to make it worse. i think i need to socialise more and start exercising its just the socialising part that feels daunting. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catsmother21 Posted October 15, 2011 Report Share Posted October 15, 2011 Confused - I don't know how I feel really. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Saharah Blue Posted October 19, 2011 Report Share Posted October 19, 2011 irritable, I want to go out and distract from it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted October 19, 2011 Report Share Posted October 19, 2011 ok.don't really want to start taking meds when feeling ok but need to 'play the game' so to speak. i know the reasoning is to avoid future crashes. plus my motivation and self-confidence to do things is always rubbish even when feeling ok so perhaps if it can help with that it will be worth it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cherish Posted October 20, 2011 Report Share Posted October 20, 2011 Feeling absolutely crap, worthless, pointless, hate being expected to just "get over it" or to "pull up my socks", yet have no support whatsoever. Just once in my life I want someone to do something for me. to put their all into something special for me. Goes without saying, i feel unappreciated. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted October 20, 2011 Report Share Posted October 20, 2011 uurrggh, other people being able to lower ones mood in a few words, a few seconds. hate it. hate being so vulnerable. hate being so easily affected. makes me need to retreat and isolate and shut them out mentally or it will all go down hill. apart from that was going well a busy day, productive but since that ^^^^^ have already started analysing it and can see lots of flaws revealing themselves. just need to stop thinking about it. just a couple of wrong words by someone over the phone and it all begins to turn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted October 20, 2011 Report Share Posted October 20, 2011 ((((vivien)))) SO understand the few words = down thing Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlylight1 Posted October 20, 2011 Report Share Posted October 20, 2011 xxxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Saharah Blue Posted October 20, 2011 Report Share Posted October 20, 2011 just a couple of wrong words by someone over the phone and it all begins to turn oh I can relate to this all too well ((viv)). Feeling horrible and upset, my wise mind somewhere in the background is saying distract, with one thing in the moment (wash the dishes in the sunlight). My angry hurt heart is not done being on a tirade..... I want to just zone out in my own bubble and disappear instead of attending to myself and my emotions. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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