sarey92 Posted January 7, 2010 Report Share Posted January 7, 2010 I feel fragile, vulnerable, alone, judged, empty, controlled, low, suicidal, irritated, frustrated, confused, apathetic & a bunch of other stuff that I don't know how to explain or describe. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sarey92 Posted January 8, 2010 Report Share Posted January 8, 2010 Attacked & hurt from someone from here. Well, a lot of people from here, but someone has been very rude to me on Facebook & I really can't deal with it. But I'm not going to let them get to me. Sleepy, have only had 3 & a half hours sleep, before that I was up for 25 hours & a half. Will type out a message & head off back to sleep. Very itchy from my Tramadol. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hayz Posted January 8, 2010 Report Share Posted January 8, 2010 I feel great today lifes gooooooooooooooooooooooood Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sarey92 Posted January 9, 2010 Report Share Posted January 9, 2010 Hopeless right now, & feeling negative emotions & having negative thoughts a lot of the time. Going to try sleeping again. Have only managed 5 hours & 45 minutes, & before that, was awake for 25 & a half hours. Need to catch up & rest. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ktspike Posted January 9, 2010 Report Share Posted January 9, 2010 lost! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Benway Posted January 9, 2010 Report Share Posted January 9, 2010 so relieved--- my court case for custody of my 14 yr ol has been put back till march- i was dreading going 10 miles in this insane weather to be there for 10am on mon morning. plus i would have had 30 minustes to secure legal representaion. and the buses prob would not be running, and my advocate says she cant giv me a lift due to insurance reasons and i panic on buses at the best of times. so now ive got 2 mths to get legal rep. , plus be able to save for the cost of the solicitor, a nonimal fee, but still 50% of my weekly income. relieved about toaster, my reason for logging in to see was there news, and im so glad its good. happy i took the time yesterday to do some cleaning , the house looks an awful lot better for 1 hour! going to keep this up! still pissed off i have not seen justin since before xmx, and his dad keeps cancelling viits on me- (this is his 'drive her insane so she'll do something crazy' approach. He used it last court case too. Am not talking the bait this time. meditation helps. My dr n const. psych. both say i should have full custody- i have been clean with no self harm or ods for quite some time now. no weed even... ANGRY that my son -14- spent xmas 4 miles away with his dad and some girl who stayed in dereks bed for 5 days, when i could have seen him. I was told they were 80 miles away by my ex. A catalogue of lies... Yeah, im ok tho. bit cold! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sarey92 Posted January 9, 2010 Report Share Posted January 9, 2010 Suicidal & extremely distressed. A friend of mine is helping to keep me distracted & speaking with me on the phone. But I'm happy about reporting a member from here & having it being sorted out, finally. I was sent an extremely rude, bullying & disrespectful PM. It has brought back a lot of distressing memories. I'm not going to be taking that crap from anyone. -_- Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Corpsewithpulse Posted January 10, 2010 Report Share Posted January 10, 2010 I had a dream where I was with the ex (UNCLEAN! UNCLEAN!)so waking up was a real pain in the arse. Feeling somewhat better now but still frustrated with being stuck at my Mum's. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HelenS70 Posted January 10, 2010 Report Share Posted January 10, 2010 I felt like a real moody cow all day... even diazepam didn't cheer me up so I went back to bed for 3 hours and now feel much better... come to a conclusion I am not a morning person so will have to email my boss tomorrow and tell them to take me off those early shifts! :wacko: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Villan Posted January 10, 2010 Report Share Posted January 10, 2010 fucking pissed off lonely hate myself and all the rest of the shit i cba typin out Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
skp67 Posted January 10, 2010 Report Share Posted January 10, 2010 feeling tipsy topsy turvey and thats without alcohol!!!! Want some new meds..... PLEASE Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sarey92 Posted January 11, 2010 Report Share Posted January 11, 2010 Desperate for more tramadol. Feel unwell. Feel frustrated. Feel judged. Feel awful. <_< Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HelenS70 Posted January 11, 2010 Report Share Posted January 11, 2010 Have you ever seen people off their nut on alcohol and illegal drugs? I looked in the mirror and I look absolutely off my nut. Those illegal drugs you are suppose to feel over confident and full of yourself well I am the opposite, I feel like crawling into my shell and not come out. However, I will enjoy this cup of tea and do a bit of reading and go back to bed. Hopefully will feel better for my nightshift. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sarabpd Posted January 11, 2010 Report Share Posted January 11, 2010 upset and angry and want things to disappear Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Villan Posted January 12, 2010 Report Share Posted January 12, 2010 better than yesterday managed to get to work with no snow related incidents and tis my best friends birthday so i will try be happy for him all day xx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HelenS70 Posted January 12, 2010 Report Share Posted January 12, 2010 better than yesterday managed to get to work with no snow related incidents and tis my best friends birthday so i will try be happy for him all day xx Hope you do have a wonderful day sweetheart, you deserve happiness... I think you are the best Hope you friend enjoys her day too! :D Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HelenS70 Posted January 12, 2010 Report Share Posted January 12, 2010 But after that soft message to a dear friend I have to say that I am remaining in a very bad mood and can only tollerate the few that I like, the others will have to stay out of my face! Iggi my man where are you? :blink: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Villan Posted January 12, 2010 Report Share Posted January 12, 2010 it ok helen - i am feelin like crap now too... but the wub was appreciated xxxxxx wanna go stompin together to go find summat to kik the shit outta cos that's what i wanna do... :angry: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HelenS70 Posted January 12, 2010 Report Share Posted January 12, 2010 I have found a bit of relief in a post I just written but I could do with some stompin that's for sure! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Villan Posted January 12, 2010 Report Share Posted January 12, 2010 renames post "how do you feel this hour, minute, second" cos that's what is like for me atm scared myself drivin home - slush MUCH worse than snow on a RWD car... BUT got in and found tex from bro sayin Pompey game on tv tonight... SO i have a 90 minute distraction ahead of me yayyyyy... mood swings - what mood swings :wacko: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted January 12, 2010 Report Share Posted January 12, 2010 depressed as hell Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Data Posted January 13, 2010 Report Share Posted January 13, 2010 Not too bad. I have managed to get some jobs out of the way and work is proceding slowly but surely. The kids are thrilled that I've finally got the printer sorted out after MONTHS. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Corpsewithpulse Posted January 14, 2010 Report Share Posted January 14, 2010 I could do with Tony McCoy on my back Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted January 14, 2010 Report Share Posted January 14, 2010 hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Villan Posted January 14, 2010 Report Share Posted January 14, 2010 tired - dint sleep well... but caught up with friend on msn @ half two in am so that killed some time and cheered me up loads... stable atm.... busy at work and the stressy bentley sale has gone through so things calmin down here........... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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