Stellar Posted March 20, 2014 Report Share Posted March 20, 2014 Split --------- He was away with it If there is a place to go The other self,split in Two With multitudes of woe A place not far away Where lows compete with highs The other self,split in Two Or maybe in disguise To be aware of everything Yet totally unaware The other self,split in Two Leaves chaos everywhere To numb the body and the mind Release alternate soul The other self,split in Two Then loses all control So confused when looking back At all this self destruction The other self,split in Two Offers no construction Time covers up the years of hurt Yet buries so much more The other self,split in Two Lost,spilling on the floor Exploding like a Nail bomb Showering conflict on self harm The other self,split in Two Takes ages then to calm History repeated then With each confusing act The other self,split in Two Where negatives subtract Eats away into the core Slips deeper to decay The other self,split in Two Throws all last hopes away There is really no solution Mind Doc's fail to get within The other self,split in Two Succeeds,but does not win Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted March 20, 2014 Author Report Share Posted March 20, 2014 Laid Bare ------------- Peel me,reveal me,do you like what you see Take your time,anticipation,inhalation of me Enthuse in my essence,let it wash over you Do you feel waves of pleasure,do you think that I do How many layers,have you reached my extremes Locked away in a dungeon with my hopes and my dreams Dig in those nails,take your time,make me bleed Salivate in your lust,strip back my layers with your greed Transfixed,can you feel,I am wet to the touch Maybe its the way that you thrill me so much What am I to you,just a thing to abuse To linger and finger,anything that you choose The centre is strong,are you hooked on my scent How many times will you come till your spent Breath in,you love it,like a Dog that's on heat Tuned into the source whilst regarding its meat A meal to be had,as you prepare the main course Animalistic desire,or just pure intercourse Primitive displays as unbridled with passion A vegetable stripped,is the height fetish of fashion Some are easier than others,give in easy to sin Others have skins that are fragile or thin There are those laid wide open,no depth to the soul Yet once under my spell,I have full control Do you cry,do the tears stream,cascade down your face Desire drives you crazy,as you peel with disgrace I slip through your fingers,try as you might Grip me tight,look away,as we both struggle and fight To hold captive,you are captive,to that innermost charm As you open me up,do I care,I self harm Regard now with relish,because for me its to late Like an Onion,laid bare,revealed on your plate Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted March 20, 2014 Author Report Share Posted March 20, 2014 Anathema -------------- ABANDONED in ethereal haze Arms outstretched to the stars IMPERFECT in his Emerald gaze Littered now with scars EMOTIONAL,never acquiesce Transience tears the soul Light flips back to darkness When never in control BORDERLINE,this dreamer A lifetimes contradiction WASTED years pass,Anathema TRAPPED within constriction LOST,dysthymic,full of doubt NOTHING left to give DYING from the inside out EMPTY things don't live GONE,futile benediction Can't start afresh,renew A year tops!!,the prediction PAIN over,ended,through!!! Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
moonbeam beth Posted March 20, 2014 Report Share Posted March 20, 2014 Hello stellar, the mousie poem was lovely.. but these, are, so powerful, for me, to read..the, wow, is different.. Thank you, for sharing your work.. Well wishes, Moonbeam beth. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted March 20, 2014 Author Report Share Posted March 20, 2014 Thanks moonbeam beth,I have a hundred plus more of similar. Some very,very dark ones,others passionate,others comical Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted March 25, 2014 Author Report Share Posted March 25, 2014 KILLERS A cupboard full of sweeties In every shape and size Those that make your eyelids droop Some open up your eyes A fascinating arrangement In a large bag one foot square Maybe i should finish things I'll pay a visit there Oops,totally forgotten Afraid i have already Swigging my fourth bottle now Nice feeling am unsteady A larder of a squirrel A stockpile of delights Can see you through the darkest days Or blank out most the nights A warm and heady feeling Drift tingling of some kind Like blends of pure Malt Whisky New sensations fill the mind The relaxing of the body Drugs coursing through the veins Reality is so distant now Gone are most life's pains As things reach a conclusion With mixed Alcoholic rush The only question in one's head Is how far do I push Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted March 25, 2014 Author Report Share Posted March 25, 2014 Bridge of Sighs --------------------- The light illuminous through those heat drenched glistening windows Why does time stop listening intent upon that hour When caught abandoned in perspirations turmoil frozen, Obliviously aware there,for betrayers to devour The world sleeps warm in shallow breathes harmonic As others gasping awaken suddenly those fears Descending then to the psychic depths dreams access Behind that overflowing waterfall of tears For anybody to endure would then accept that To mimic as a puppet dangling on a string It's those controlling who in trust your heart is then placed Who hold that rope that holds that final bell to ring As peeling off the outside through the layers Desperate fingers dance upon those feelings to defile Still standing in acceptance sounds another Where all that's left are dreams caught distant on a smile That distance,is now way to close for comfort Revealing all,yet nothing,but to much If silence is a virtue in the minds eye Then all is empty to the ears,the sight,the touch If only there were answers to those questions There never will be as the incline becomes too steep As what has gone,still remains there,never alters So the descent in its parallel will creep Across the heart,into the soul,it's all consuming Wrings the last hope from the warmest,faintest breath When searching,pleading innocent those misfortunes Becomes a constant from conception through to death Do not fear that which unknown which calmly beckons As fortunes truthful hide behind that mystics eyes Leads you down a path with frangrances now tranquil When weeping over depths below the "Bridge of sighs" Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted March 25, 2014 Author Report Share Posted March 25, 2014 Who am I ? I am the raging sea,a gull Wings ruffled hiding plumage torn A Redwood dance around my girth Time on shoulders foliage worn I am a drifter lost in time Two as one and one alone Life listens in acknowledgement In itself now can,t atone I am the one void of what is What also never was at all Selectively caught in a drift Of ice too bitter to recall I am the one with eyes that watch Sharp aural intake honed through time A sense of self so sharp yet not When all seems good or just sublime I am in destiny's chosen grip If hell has chosen no surprise A thousand truths that cannot match The hand that holds a pack of lies I am the joker void of smile The aces never held that hand What else can happen with what's dealt When things go up and never land I am that turned inside and out When what was in is out but blank Head links with heart,heart links with head When heart tells head how low it,s sank I am that silent scream and more When things crowd crazy in a queue The harp so sad plays notes that cry When time itself encumbers you Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted March 25, 2014 Author Report Share Posted March 25, 2014 On a lighter note, Caress Words Magical with Angelic tones, Soft fabric traces left concealed Spun spellbound woven tapestries Lay hidden yet revealed On harmonies harp sweet notes are stroked Soft music lights the pages Serenity cries in plaintive chords Through complex interchanges With words as lush as life itself Born of pure conception A flowing Waltz,a heartbeat skip In Mitral valve reception Those sad reflective Melodies Tears tumble never cease This gifted,learned Harpist bard Plays silk caressed relief Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted April 19, 2014 Author Report Share Posted April 19, 2014 Angels Weep False Crimson Motherly Tears ---------------------------------------------------------------- ANGELS in hopes desolation Whisper in dark hideous ears Consort now with the Devils offspring Cast shadows on sad lonely tears WEEP in silent Hells confinement Bright Red contrast Virginal The Hymen torn once guarded closely Now blood Red spilt from chalice full FALSE impregnations,womb eternal Spurts the last free flowing flood The vampires feast weeps sacrificial Fangs drip with Lambs Angelic blood CRIMSON splattered in its contrast Purest White midst haemorrhaging rain Stands helpless in the latest downpour Feet soaked in deep Red pools of pain MOTHERLY thoughts wrenched from repression Hang foggy on the morning dew Drained,sucked,emptied of all Maternal Yet still stands arms out offering you TEARS for a Mum caught on the thorns Eyes dry now hide a soul drained numb The child still clutches blood Red Roses Held out in hope one day she'll come Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted April 19, 2014 Author Report Share Posted April 19, 2014 Nothing Nothing ------------------- Whatever,whatever,whatever The magician plays his trump card But is only his own endeavour Cos that that's hurt beyond the pale Won,t twitch an inch,by tooth or nail With arms aloft you,ll count on it You think i'll say my wrists i'll slit But No,will sit here where I'll sit Annoying you each bit by bit Staring with longing for the split The blood to spurt all over it Bathe in the death of a misfit Whose history now they will omit Make them feel like total shit When all in nodding judgement sit With final verdict "He's a tit" Born that way,a spore adrift No more than that,left,hitch a lift A Bitch that never cared at all Have phone number,never call Thrust into a world of woe Now,Fuck off,I hate you,I must go Never,Never,Never alter Why my footsteps always falter Left upon a tide of hope yet shackled with a tarnished rope Which bears no weight Just keeps the ties Which mirror lost the image dies With Motherly suckling nothing/NIL Suck on abandonment until The taste is toxic in the throat Whilst those who think they know still gloat When hair is torn in many shreds Canes whistle crashing on warm beds Nothing ever good enough Then like a Dog ain't bad enough He stokes and strokes and finds the tickle leaves you in lost like her in pickle Mixed and TOSSED,Completely torn Exposed beyond the realms of porn Divided,sub-divided ,shot Ripped in to but utter not Misplaced,hurt,left whilst clutching skirt Comes mocking laughter,deep the hurt As dirty pigs shall not be heard Don,t whistle like a Myna Bird Stifle the screams across the pages Though nobody understands the pain that rages Sleep comfortable those tucked in your bed Whilst dreaming wish that you were were dead When everything is blown away Those who punish never pay Those that suffer,suffer still Illness heaped upon the quill As ink pours out across the paper Not a hopeful tale or caper But heaped in terrifying visions Adults with pains circumcisions Cut off before the first chapter Strung up on the highest rafter Never to come gently down Birthday bumps,the lonely clown A joke,especially now to see Revealing inner parts of he Because when you don,t really care You cut off all your troubled hair Prepare a speech ,an epitaph Still certain they will mock and laugh Point at the failure standing there Look!!,he's chopped off all his hair Look at his eyes,just how they stare Because his soul,he has laid bare As stood there lacking underwear Exposed now in the public's glare Who turn their backs Why ?they don,t care Why ? because they just see NOTHING there The nothing with that empty stare Who yearns for love,yet does not care When everything is intense yet numb The body last thing to succumb Although already been struck dumb Foetal position ,sucking thumb The seed of his despair Bereft with nothing there Nothing Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted April 19, 2014 Author Report Share Posted April 19, 2014 BLOOD(thirteen) -------------------- The cord pulled tight,the dawn of light The BLOOD red heart beats on With voices background murmering Life over,ended,gone Gone like all the yesterdays With BLOOD left on the floor It matters not,who's who,says what Veins open bleed some more Just as the BLOOD when I was born Tainted,in stagnation Cast adrift,alone with death His ultimate salvation The BLOOD that drips from childs thick lip A teddy for a mate BLOOD in his tears,on teddys cheek Resigned to this his fate BLOOD haemorrhaging,it squirts and squirts From each and every pore Just pile the F****** angst up high Embrace it,give me more With body stiffened,as if in fit Eyes fixed with tortured soul Drift following a calming light Lifes BLOOD has reached its goal Goodbyes are said as weight is shed Pain,numbed up till i'm full Sit with BLOOD,it's all too late Erased this life,anull Somehow with pain and BLOOD soaked rain Drowning in the sorrow With BPD symptoms,they confound Convinced won't see tomorrow The BLOOD concealed by gaffer tape It soaks right through and down I knock back Whisky as I write BLOOD memories hope to drown So here I visit forum Reveal what's underneath But as street fighters always say Life sucks! through BLOOD soaked teeth Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BVBarmygirl Posted April 26, 2014 Report Share Posted April 26, 2014 I can relate to your poem split, and I like caress too, well I like all of them, they're all so beautifully written, such a rich use of wording, and it's all so relatable. You definitely have a talent Post more! Rogue xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted April 27, 2014 Author Report Share Posted April 27, 2014 Hi, Thanks Rogue, Will post more,have loads,plus always adding more .Took a peek at your site a short while ago.Like it,seems we are in a similar musical sphere. Take care Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted May 1, 2014 Author Report Share Posted May 1, 2014 Little sad(a 5 minute ditty) ------------------------------ Little sad person,sits all on his own Life gone before began Beyond all helps construction Little sad person,sits all alone Slit wrists,from which blood runs Which offered no obstruction Little sad person,sits all alone Praying not to be The him that maybe she Little sad person,sits all alone Open to all vice Knows,what is wrong is nice Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted May 2, 2014 Author Report Share Posted May 2, 2014 Other me ------------- Little miss mischief She rice paper slides Then glides into view uninvited Sucks her finger to seduce To squeeze some more juice In control again,get you excited With a click of deft fingers Make you beg her for more She will make you get down on your knees One flick of her hair A bite of her lip You know she's eager to please Splits from my body Cuts me in Two Don't care if I do or I don't To think in control,yet totally not If asked to reveal She just won't Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
moonbeam beth Posted May 2, 2014 Report Share Posted May 2, 2014 Thank you for sharing more of your poetry Stellar... Well wish MBB Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted May 3, 2014 Author Report Share Posted May 3, 2014 Like a kite in the wind Like a bird on the wing Like a knife to the heart As in death do us part Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddy harper Posted May 17, 2014 Report Share Posted May 17, 2014 these are really goood nice flow stella Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted May 18, 2014 Author Report Share Posted May 18, 2014 Well yet another mystery.At 12.25a.m on 3rd May i Write "other me",which i remember.At 2.59 a.m on 3rd May i post a 4 line untitled piece which i have no memory of whatsoever.This happens a lot with me,and seems to be increasing in frequency.I can only assume i dissociated somewhere along the line again. Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted June 3, 2014 Author Report Share Posted June 3, 2014 Vomit -------- Not needing Anything,when all is nothing of what's left Nothing,when all that's left ain't anything Not trying To live,to grow,to have a path A path to overgrown to have to live Insignificant,you will find me Stuck alone in the void,the chasm The emptiness within the depth of a scream Black ashes in a death charged dream Not seeing Anything to live for,in a vacant,silent stare Life of silence in a vacant stare of death Not hearing Dead words on empty ears that end Dead-ends on empty words in ears Straddling the knife slide,opened wide Pouring out the dull release of life Breathing in to expire already bereft Add to the pit,vomit all of nothing left Not tasting The bitter,toxic vomit mix of highs The toxic highs of bitter vomit mix Not loving The image that's reflected in the love to hurt The reflection back that hurts the unloved image Dead to the pulse in darkened veins Spill out the in to insidious Squalid in vomit the scraps of life remain Adhering loosely to the pain Not feeling The pain that numbs the feeling The numb feels nothing of the pain Not breathing The in's too little then to fill the out The out's to much again to fill the in Unworthy now enough to see or feel As forever deserving no respect Submissive,slice me to the core Used and sullied on the floor Not living When death is just vomit in the Astral core Drowning now forever in this state of living death Termination in each vomited last breath Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Carthraziel Posted June 4, 2014 Report Share Posted June 4, 2014 These are really emotive. Keep writing Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted July 7, 2014 Author Report Share Posted July 7, 2014 No-one really there --------------------------- The letter summoned him,be there! They felt the need to see the real Did they not know,he diden't care Numbed to the core to never feel Within himself,the other mind The battle raged from deep within Yet on the surface,you will find An outer shell instead of skin Emotions shattered through his being Seagull screech inside his head Explosions,depth charge,yet not seeing The most inside,already dead A corpse,a waste of ****ing space Rag Doll body,dirty slut He's marked in gross disgrace,deep scars Bare witness,smiling,every cut The plan,sharp objects with him Calm as an ocean before the storm Open both wrists there before them Give them blood,fresh,red and warm In the waiting room,his brain So calm,lack of meds perhaps Retreating to that place when pain Becomes too much with each relapse Deciding then to wait and see The Doctor payed by ESA Was kind and friendly as can be So there he sat in disarray The him that's him,the other him Looked at the him that was sat there Out of body,escaping on a whim With things to hard for him to bear Nearly in tears he sat before him He seemed to understand his pain Monotone and not quite with it Split in Two inside his brain Other me can see inside The souls and minds of everyone This man of letters,he could not find Reason to"Take off on one" Did he see the other him? He can't remember much to care He didn't ask a Thousand questions Maybe because he wasn't there? No examination,just brief skim He felt no need,or so did seem He looked at himself who looked at him A passenger caught in a dream He asked me things,this that,childhood Drifting from my body more Into the places I keep hidden Padlock,key and bolted door Did he detect that me,not normal Maybe just a long lost cause Or have I in the depths of formal Ground to a stop or maybe pause "Do you have thoughts to end your life?" "All of the time"was my reply Looking at myself in this freefall Pathetic,worthless,wondering why? I'm still alive,when oh so dead! Most flawed person who exists As thoughts renewed rush through my head To empty myself through my wrists The best that I can do however Is sit,that part of me and stare Out of my mind or perhaps whatever's Left of no-one really there Titan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted July 7, 2014 Author Report Share Posted July 7, 2014 Over ------ I have given up The last of me is dead Struck off,this insignificant Sick body and in head Piss illness,medication Synthetic,toxic mix O D goes round in circles Each tranquil,self-harm fix Smashed hand is mummified now Right handed,Daddy dud More useless now than ever Without the sight of blood Sit,staring into space now Feel life is at an end Can hardly pen to paper Head spinning round the bend Last shards left of my being Now left upon the wall Life over,soon and gone then Forever,beyond recall Titan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stellar Posted October 30, 2014 Author Report Share Posted October 30, 2014 Inadequate --------------- Inadequate,he can't see,be seen Does not deserve to even be The stupid,feels misunderstood Inside,beside the other he Into the floor and through the walls Inadequate,has nowhere to go Sits,nothing,idiot in his face Upon it massive nose will grow Eyes Enormilluminate Self- conscious,ugly,sticky face Inadequate demeanor,awkward squirms Transcending to another place People look,they laugh and sneer Inadequate goes where no-one can Inside,beside the other him Worthless,poor excuse of man At this moment,dies inside Revives,then dies a Thousand more Inadequate spills out everywhere Up the walls,the ceiling,floor This feeling,constant,never goes Hates himself enough to let Himself inside what others see Total loss inadequate Stellar Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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