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kate78

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Well hello. I came across this site through writing a diary in a depression web-site, which I started after beginning to take anti-D's and starting going through the NHS mental health system. I saw a community pychiatric nurse last week and she thought that I had many of the behaviours/thoughts associated with BPD. So I started reading, looking up diagnosis, descriptions and over the past week have had nothing short of an apiphany! Even the more subtle aspects, that I thought were just me, are things that have some connection to the bigger picture. So, I felt writing a diary on the other depression website was very valuable, but I think that writing one within a community that understands the perculiarities of BPD might be more useful. So, here I am introducing myself.

I am in my late 20's, and began ODing when I was around 10, had a rather turbulent childhood, messed around with myself with various forms of self harming - cutting, drinking, eating habits, risk taking... I have had no real relationships, although have found myself in obsessive passionate love with a few gems out there. I love the Joni Mitchell line "I'm frightened by the devil, and drawn to those who aren't afraid".

I really want to take control of myself - I want to stop the rages, I want to trust people more, I want to know how to handle my emotions, I want to have functional relationships, I want to make the most of my life. Not much then... I have begun to see a cpn, I have a good GP, I have just secured a bit of regular work, and for the first time, I really feel like I have friends. So everything is in place, and I know there will be some hard times, but it has got to be better than this semi-life I have been living. Once the Journal thing is up and running, I'll write more then. So hello All! Nice to have found this place, what a great resource.

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Hi,

Welcome, Glad u came accross this site. Its good u have a good GP and a CPN. Hope u get your life how u want it and its good that u got a job and stuff and things are all sorting.

Take care

tory

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Hiya Kate,

Welcometo BPD World.....you will find alot of support here as well as making alot of kewl friends......hang in there we are here for you..hugsssssssssss

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