lostsoul Posted October 18, 2004 Report Share Posted October 18, 2004 Hi there. My name is Claire, I am 24 and live in East London. I logged on to this site for the first time today and feel really relieved to have finally found a lead on what's up with me. It's kind of silly to feel relieved... a name for a condition isn't helpful in itself is it? but there is a sense of not feeling so odd, knowing now that other people are experiencing very similar things as me. I am glad it's not as serious as bi-polar and other things. The most I am at risk of is driving off people, not holding down jobs and becoming homeless, or killing myself. What was I saying about not serious? Hmm. A little bit about me... I play the drums and have a kit at home. My neighbours hate me (but secretly think I'm cool haha). I also hate me (but secretly think I'm cool haha). This allows me to find some common ground with them where otherwise there would be none. Tee Hee. I am also into writing poetry (yuk) and paint nudes with enthusiasm and glee. Wahey! Once photographed two friends in the nuddy and the film didn't come out at all...boo hoo, mooch...When I was fifteen I wanted to be a roadie. There are no decent bands anymore. Now, if Floyd were still around then I would definitely be up for it! But obviously I would choose being their drummer rather than a roadie. It's a no brainer really. I am about to start counselling (CBT) for my insanity conundrum. Hope it works! I could waffle on about my mother who is a bit much (agoraphobia, depression, anxiety, bad parent) and how she threatened to kill herself and hated my dad, and how he was too withdrawn to do anything about it so I had to. I could bang on about my Bro who has Aspergers and BPD. oops i just did. I think in my case I was genetically predisposed to be emotionally fragile and volatile, but my environment played its part too. I'm not that interested anymore in how I got to be like this. I just want to make positive steps to deal with it now, and that means changing my thought patterns and how I interpret and deal with my emotions. Of course, this is going to be pretty tricky, but I am going to try. I really want children some day and don't want to end up lonely, just me and the drum kit! That's it really! X Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wabbit Posted October 18, 2004 Report Share Posted October 18, 2004 if you are anywhere near walthamstow, i have the perfect t fer you if ya dont already have one Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tory Posted October 18, 2004 Report Share Posted October 18, 2004 Welcome to the site. Was nice to talk to u in chat. Hope u like it here. Take care Tory Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jo Posted October 18, 2004 Report Share Posted October 18, 2004 hi claire! welcome to the site glad you found us, chat again soon! take care, jo xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
em Posted October 18, 2004 Report Share Posted October 18, 2004 Tc Em xxx WELCOME TO BPDWORLD Hi Claire (I haven't lost the plot really just thought I'd do things differently ) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lostsoul Posted October 19, 2004 Author Report Share Posted October 19, 2004 if you are anywhere near walthamstow, i have the perfect t fer you if ya dont already have one <{POST_SNAPBACK}> Thanks wabbit! Could you post details of how to get info from you on this page? It would be very helpful - I am having problems finding a CBT therapist round here, so much appreciated. CHEERS XXX Claire :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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