jai Posted July 2, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 2, 2006 yeppers i do and i feel bad for worrying you all with my paranoia..you are a life line for me and i would hate to leave and know i would miss you all so much..this place is our safe haven and my fears are just that, stupid , irrational and getting the better of me at the mo...hoping tomorrow is better and we can start again , a new day , maybe better feelings to go with it...paranoia sucks and it invades every thought at its worst...i think i've been a radar for all things menacing for days now and today was the culmination.so, big apologies again...i hate to think i have got you all so worried about possible imposters, and Birdesh you are right..we know we care about each other and are here for each other and that is why we are here...Take care and please forgive me....love and hugs to you all, jaix Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted July 2, 2006 Report Share Posted July 2, 2006 JaiDon't be a plonkerYou haven't made us worry.We just want you to feel better.I have felt stalked for a wee while now.I just mentioned it cos it was so bad today (sorry)Take CarePipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vorpalblade Posted July 3, 2006 Report Share Posted July 3, 2006 Jai, i hope that today is a better day for youloveBladey Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted July 3, 2006 Report Share Posted July 3, 2006 Jai,I hope you are feeling better nowPipsx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jai Posted July 3, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 3, 2006 Thanks Bladey and Pipyep, im in the pits emotionally but am dragging myself through the day, tried the keeping busy thing to distract me....otherwise, keep crying , feeling dead inside but am here and hanging in there....i really want to hide under the duvet but am trying not to, i think i'd end up sobbing for the rest of the daybummer eh, summer arrives and so many of us feeling this way, just is too fucking horrible....last nights crisis over for the timebeing, i prefer numb to paranoid, angry, irritable and totally irrationallove you guys loadsjaix Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
poodle Posted July 3, 2006 Report Share Posted July 3, 2006 keep on going Jai, just gotta keep on going!!!(((((((((Jai)))))))))Poodlexx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jai Posted July 3, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 3, 2006 thanks poodle,had a busy day again, with a nap this afternoon and bike ride to the local for a shandy with my one friend who has been in hiding for two weeks, so it was good to catch up and nice to get out for a bit in the cool air...so things are much improved thankfully..although the day began with tears again i managed to force myself into it..and my mood lifted at around 5pm....crikey i sound like the weather forecast , ill shut up nowlove and thanks for all the supportjaix Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samsung Posted July 3, 2006 Report Share Posted July 3, 2006 jai... you also have my hand...i care for you. glad your mood lifted.i understand the feeling hunni... here for you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jai Posted July 3, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 3, 2006 thank you Rachel and lil rach.....how are the bears behaving in the heat?hehehelove jaix Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted July 3, 2006 Report Share Posted July 3, 2006 JaiGlad you sound on the up.It was the duvet that did it..........Pipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samsung Posted July 4, 2006 Report Share Posted July 4, 2006 jaynie..my bears are notty!!!they r alll over me.. begging me to take them swimming.i care for you jaynieyou are my only friendlil rach Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jai Posted July 4, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 4, 2006 lil rachel you tell those bears no to swimming , if they get wet they will stink..like a wet doggy!!they are too much sometimes!jai loves lil rach too hontake carexxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samsung Posted July 4, 2006 Report Share Posted July 4, 2006 jaynie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!thay are tooo much for me. bu i like them. they make me feel happeywhere are you. when canyou come and see me?i am alone jaynie... i dont think you should love me.that hurts too muchrachie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lie Posted July 4, 2006 Report Share Posted July 4, 2006 jai though i am new here, from other message boards i know your feeling of being paranoid and thinking someone was up to find out my weaknesses and attack me in the end. i also suspected many submissions to be false. it is easiet to get paranoid on the internet then irl.i think it is really good that you have told us about the way you feel, because many of us feel similarily but these things are really difficult to say. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
realscape Posted July 4, 2006 Report Share Posted July 4, 2006 Hi JaiEchoing what Lie says. I get paranoid too, I feel suspicious sometimes that people are non-genuine or trolling or stuff. I guess its partly a sane response to the vulnerabilities of being online but also partly an irrational fear of being unsafe or played with or whatever.Generally speaking, I'm just completely paranoid in general in life because of repeated bad events that have happened to me and it sounds the same in your instance. If you can build a relationship of trust with your therapist, that may be a start to recovering - I'm too paranoid to even do that. Yikes.Regarding noisy neighbours, I don't know how it works in your area, but in my borough you can call the main switchboard of the local council after 10pm and ask for the Noise Team, they will then visit the noisy premises in a very disarming fashion and only if things turn nasty do they get police back up. I have done that with my neighbours before, it was anonymous and I felt that the Noise Team were great. Noise is hell. Have been out of London for a few days and now I realise how badly noise is getting me down. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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