abbynormal Posted August 7, 2006 Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 Trying to figure out the whirlwind of events the last two weeks. Trying hard to leave my alters out of my posts and haven't seen that they have been in here lately. My T is leaving on vacation on Friday. Wants to put me in the psycho hospital while he is gone. I am so pissed! I know he deserves a vacation and actually am glad that I will get a break from having my brain poked. I told him I feel like a freak show and he said well in a way you are... dont see people who dissociate like you very often. That hurt. Now my parts are threatening. My whole right side is bruised. Can't tell the T about that.. he would surely put in the hospital. It was an accident. Lost with no direction so just typing here. So alone. Abby Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted August 7, 2006 Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 Abby sweetheart,At least in hospital you would be safe.LovePipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samsung Posted August 7, 2006 Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 hey abbyi would like to urge you on.. if you feel in any way that you are a threat to yourself or others, please go to hospital.it is not that bad and all the people are there to help you.there is nothing we can do to help you except talk you through it.please take special carerachel Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
abbynormal Posted August 7, 2006 Author Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 Rachel and Pip,Thanks for answering. I am not sure what I will do. Know by the end of the week. Today I have regulart dr appt... which I will go to. Have not gone in 3 months... just don't show up. burning bridges everywhere I go Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jai Posted August 7, 2006 Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 ((((((Abby)))))it was harsh of your t to say what he did , whilst he may think it , he did nt have to say it! i am shocked....i hope that somehow the solution to the problem feels ok with you in the end. Whether that be hospital or home....take carelovejaix Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted August 7, 2006 Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 Our bridges will never burn AbbyPlease think of your own safetyPipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
abbynormal Posted August 7, 2006 Author Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 Pip I am trying. It is such a complicated question as you know. Sometimes life just plain sucks and is too hard. Then I read posts in here and realize who am I to complain.... others have it worse. I don't know.... wandering.Abby Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted August 7, 2006 Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 I know we all post.You need to think of YOU, not us.What is best for you?Where will you be safe?Only you and therapist knowLovePipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
abbynormal Posted August 7, 2006 Author Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 I guess this is just hitting my rejection and abandonment issues. So much in 2 weeks. First learning that I was sexally abused by my grandfather, then my friend from Germany comes for a visit, which was nice but she knew me THEN! When all the satanic stuff happened... and all came crashing down. And I have pretty much pushed her away, my friends here in Vermont, and alot of you guys... hey.. I know you still hang with me, thanks Pip. I am just low, I will perk up. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted August 7, 2006 Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 I do hope things get better Abby.Always here for youPipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jynx Posted August 7, 2006 Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 i'm sorry sweetie. it's a bit much wen everythin happens all in one go. keep hangin in and do whats right for you.jenxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
verntheconfused Posted August 7, 2006 Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 Abby,maybe it will be a good thing to go to the hospital at least til your therapist comes back.I hope all goes well.Vern x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
abbynormal Posted August 7, 2006 Author Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 thanks Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted August 7, 2006 Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 Abby,Many people on this site care for you.Please know we are here(((Abby)))Pipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
abbynormal Posted August 7, 2006 Author Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 Oh Pip.... sweet as always. Its ok... I am honest at least and I do genuinely care about people. Thanks Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samsung Posted August 7, 2006 Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 i care for you abbyme, rachel Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
abbynormal Posted August 7, 2006 Author Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 Thanks Rach... I have been too caught up in my own world to be there for you or anyone....sorry.Abby Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samsung Posted August 7, 2006 Report Share Posted August 7, 2006 well we all get our tough timessleep tite Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Eva* Posted August 8, 2006 Report Share Posted August 8, 2006 Stay safe somehow, Abby. Only you know if you're in danger or not.I can't see any bridges you have burnt on here, they are all still standing I believe.I hope there are more peaceful times ahead for you.LoveEva Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
abbynormal Posted August 8, 2006 Author Report Share Posted August 8, 2006 Thanks Eva.... I have 3 appts.. this week..... first one tonight.....I have decided no hospital. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Eva* Posted August 8, 2006 Report Share Posted August 8, 2006 Good luck with the appts, I hope they all go well. And all the best wishes for the next few weeks in general.LoveEva Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
abbynormal Posted August 8, 2006 Author Report Share Posted August 8, 2006 Thanks... am a little nervous. My appt is at 5 my time.... think of me, ok? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Miko Posted August 11, 2006 Report Share Posted August 11, 2006 Best wishes AbbyAs an outsider to DID (I assume) would it be wrong for us to read about your alters?If it was helpful for you to know them will it not be helpful to us?(Open to informative replies from Abby and others on that)Once again best wishes AbbyI should probably call you Normal for short, more than Abby.Because to me you are normal - your best version of it. And always developing. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
abbynormal Posted August 11, 2006 Author Report Share Posted August 11, 2006 Miko,How kind. YOu are the first one to show interest. I can tell you what I know about them as I have known of their existence for years although I have tried to deny it. Also there are books out there and websites. I will try to put them out there for you.Thank you for asking Abby Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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