You Weren't There

[spaghetti]

you weren't there you didnt see his face

was it, really, his breath you felt or was it something else

he is no longer real

do not let him steal

the heart that now is beating

with it brings you the life that you want

the family and the children with laughter and joy

he cant take that away from you so dont go giving it to him

I was not there

I did not hear him when he opened the door

I did not feel the heart in my chest suddenly miss a beat

i do not feel the fear

I do not because i was not there

i am here

with my heart nearly broken

a useless woman who is crying her life away

i dont want to be like this

sour as i am

bitter and twisted and hurtful and unkind

because underneath i have a heart that wants to love

i want to be cared for and i want to feel the joy

of holding those i care most for

without thinking back to that time ........

I was not there ..