WishfulMoonAngel Posted November 13, 2004 Report Share Posted November 13, 2004 these are things I've written recently.....some refer to suicide.....so please don't read if it would bother you.....I don't wanna upset anyone.....I put each poem into a different color, as most of my poems don't have titles.....it's easier to read that way..... go on...cry go on...yell go on...leave who cares what happens now? who cares what happens to me? do you remember me? you made a promise? to me? no, keep guessing I don't remember anymore don't remember my feelings don't remember the pain at least, that's what everyone wants they just hate me complaining go on...and scream go on...hate me go on...and die who cares what happens to you? who cares what happens to the world? do you remember my words? you heard me cry? right? no, keep on guessing I don't remember fearing don't remember falling apart don't remember all those tears at least, that's what eveyone wants they just are sick of me go on...leave me go on...fear me go on...don't turn back who cares if you abandon me? who cares what happens to me? do you miss me? could you miss me? me? no........keep on guessing..... nothing changes just growing bigger, bigger can't see the floor as the walls fall down lost, so very lost and alone, tired surrounded yet always alone don't belong here it hurts me it all hurts does it hurt you? the same way? I don't know I fail to understand why can't you see it? are you blind? or am I a fool? I thought I hurt, right? you say I don't you tell me I can't you say I'm wrong you say I lie all you say are lies is this real? is this me? am I even real? I don't want this I don't want anything death, end it all that's what I want the end, game over enough is enough I'm done now fading, I've lost it's over, I did my best there's nothing left to do I'm worthless, I should know I'm tired and alone and lost stay near me, please I don't want to be alone I don't think I can trust myself not anymore, I'm watching so focused on that razor what's left for me? but my shattered hopes? I tired of this war it's time to let it out let out this demon inside it tears me up inside I should release it slash a hole for it, right? what else can I do? will you tell me an option? ha, there's no such thing no choices, no way out just this, the blade calls me the only question left... do I answer when it summons? "Watching The Clock" watching the clock watching the clock I'm so tired now so very sleepy I'm watching her get ready prepare for her day without me she never needed me never needed me so she puts on her socks her shoes and coat she's almost done my mind fades back my mind fades back so scared now so frightened I hear the scream "it's not real!!" I think to myself HA, but what is real? nothing is to me, can't feel can't feel he turns to leave leave me behind here gone, almost gone snap back, "wake up!" snap back, "wake up!" I'm shaking now so bad, so bad I can't take it anymore I try to stop the rush but everything's back but it won't stop won't stop it's all back in there again I'm sick of it, makes me ill I want it over! I want it over! I've had enough I've finished go away all of you you think you're kind words will take away the darkness? I was born there fool I live there forever I'll die there too just want to die close the door close the door so tired so sleepy time for a long rest very long, don't want back I'm not coming back gonna stay with my dreams though most are nightmares it's better then here and you all aren't there I'll sleep now I'll sleep now I'm holding a toy holding something dear I love it, this is over I won't be tired now never again I'm not coming back not here, not here it's 4:00, they're gone now they're all gone now I'm done watching this clock I'm done watching this clock Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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