Oh God It Is Me

[spaghetti]

AS IS SIT HERE AND STAY VERY STILL

I CAN HEAR MY HEART BEAT AND I FEEL THE COLD

BUT NOWHERE TO RUN TO AND NOWHERE TO HIDE

I HEAR HIM COMING TO ME

I CRINGE AS HE TOUCHES MY HAIR

OH NO NOT GOING TO THAT PLACE

SO I BLOCK OFF THE PAIN AND THE HURT

YOU CANT TOUCH ME, YOU SEE I WILL NOT LET YOU

YOU CANT TAKE WHAT YOU WANT BUT YOU WONT GET ME

I AM HERE BUT IN HERE I STAY

I AM A SMALL CHILD OF 8 AND I HAVE BEEN BAD

YOU MAKE ME PROMISE TO SPEAK NO LIES

YOU TELL ME JUST TO FORGET IT

OH DEAR DAD, I ALREADY HAVE

THE ACHE IN MY HEART FOR NORMALITY

IS STILL HERE WITH ME TODAY

HOW DO I GET OVER THIS HURTING

HOW DO I STAND UP AND BE BRAVE?

OH LORD PLEASE TAKE AWAY MY SUFFERING

DONT LET THE SMALL CHILD BE SCARED

GIVE HER A BIG TEDDY TO HOLD

AND TELL HER SHE IS NORMAL, AGAIN

I AM SCARED AND I AM SORRY FOR EVER

I HATE TO BE ANGRY WITH YOU

BUT YOU MAKE ME REMEMBER THE HARD STUFF

OH, DEAR, NOW WHAT AM I TO DO?

i CANT KEEP ON WRITING FOR FORGIVENESS

AFTER A WHILE IT JUST DOESNT WASH

I JUST WANT TO BE ACCEPTED FOR BEING SCARRED

BUT NO DOUBT, IT NEVER WAS TO BE..

I AM SICK OF ALWAYS BEING SORRY

I AM SICK OF THE THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD

I AM SICK OF BEING HERE FOR ALL TO SEE

OH TIME YOU JUST CHOPPED OFF MY HEAD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Tabitha]

Time for 8 year old spag to get a hug and forgive herself because at that age it aint your fault, don't punnish yourself look after that little spag, she has alot of crying and shouting and unravelling to do and we can all hold her until she feels safe hugs Tabi