Pip

[pip]

HI

A lot of new people have joined the site since I last wrote my introduction.

I want you all to know and understand me

and the twit that I have become.

I suffer from BPD, depression, hysteria and paranoia.

I have had the BPD Dx for about 2yrs, but I have never been "normal"

I am here to support and be supported.

I want to help people as much as I can.

I am very unstable and reactive (sorry)

I often write as I think

- which is not always good!!!!!!!!!

I am sorry to the people I have pissed off.

I AM trying to keep myself in check!!

I am vulnerable, have low self-esteem.

I am however very empathetic and caring.

-Daily tasks are a struggle.

-Change is my aim - but I know it is a slow process.

I have good days and bad - like you all I guess.

I have been written off by the NHS,

however, I am trying everyday.

I wish I were in therapy - but am too "resistant"

I have a BSc, PhD and my ABPI.

Before my breakdown, I held a good career

and fitted into society.

I don't any more.

I joined the site in April and it has been a lifesaver for me

I live alone in a rural no-wheresville, in Scotland

I live with my cats

and flat-coated retreivers dogs

- they keep me alive.

My dogs and crafts are my life.

I interact with few people in real life.

I do not have family as such

and have no friends.

I do have carers and a CPN and a SW

Unfotunately they have been on holiday the past few weeks

I lost the plot on Tuesday

I wrote for Britain,

my support worker from here did not call (unforseen circumstances)

and I am open enough to say I lost it.

I felt hated by the members of the site

I was completely irrational

and I took an OD.

(Not the first)

Today is the first time since then I have been on the site.

I see it has changed.

I hope people do not find the site depressing.

Remember, we are a unique group!!!!!!!!!!

Let's try to support each other.

I may say the wrong thing at times

- but I mean well.

I want to support everyone here,

I want to make friends

and hope that this site will continue to support me.

I thank you all in advance

and look forward to meeting and making new friends

I am here for you all

Best Wishes

pip

x

[only the lonely]

Thanks I thought I was your friend Pip......just because I havent met you doesnot mean we are not mates.

Lots of love and hugs

Only

[pip]

Only,

I felt Tuesday was a very bad day.

I am trying to move on from it

and let you guys know how erratically I think

We are friends

pip

x

[JTBadBug]

Pip, I hope you are feeling a bit better

Jane x

[beth79]

Hi pip, ive missed you, hope you are feeling better.

Beth xx

[pip]

(((Jane)))

I am glad you are here.

You are my doggy friend

pip

x

[pip]

Thank you Beth

pip

x

[dolphin]

welcome to the site pippy

hope you enjoy your new lease of life here

[poodle]

hey Pip, glad you're around!

Poodle

x

[pip]

Dolphin and Poodle

You are both sweeties!!!!!!!!

pip

x

[innermuddle]

pip, thanks for posting this, it is good to know where you are at and that you feel able to be so honest. I know things have been tough for you lately honey, I had no idea about your OD but i am glad you are ok and were not too poorly, you are a valued member of this site and would be so missed if you were not here. I know you feel lonely in your life honey but you make such a difference to the lives of people here, take that thought with you everywhere you go.

I am glad to have gotten to know you my lovely

[pip]

Innermuddle

Thank you for your kind response.

The past weeks have been awful

and I suppose we just go from day to day.

I just wanted to let everyone - old and new

know where I am!

Thanks

pip

x

[Vorpalblade]

Pip

Encantada conocerte

Bladey

[Madeleine]

Nice to see you back. x

[pip]

Thank you Maddy!

It is nice to be back!!!!

love

pip

x

[mort]

(((pip)))

I'm glad you are back. You've been missed.

It's already been said but you have many friends here and I hope you count me as one.

I hope each step is a step towards a better place for you.

tc

mort x

[pip]

Thank you mort

I didn't realise anyone knew I was missing!

[Vorpalblade]

sure we did :)

[pip]

Why thank you Blade.

[Vorpalblade]

most welcome

[pip]

Instead of being all negative and saying I had ODed

I thought it would be nice for everyone to know where

and who I am.

I don't think we need to be new to introduce ourselves.

Perhaps we could have an update forum?

Let people not miss out?

Just an idea

pip

x

[ladyluck28]

(((Pip)) I missed you...hope im your friend.. :)

[pip]

(((LadyLuck)))

Thank you,

We are friends.

I just wanted people to understand a bit more about me

and where I had been all week.

I hope you are ok

pip

x

[aylaah]

pip I think writing this was a great idea. I for one, feel like I can understand you better because of it and know from where you are coming from in your posts.

thanks :)

[pip]

Thanks Aylaah

I just wanted to reach people

and help them understand me a bit more

I'm glad it worked!!!!!

I hope you are ok (((Aylaah)))

pip

x