pip Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 HIA lot of new people have joined the site since I last wrote my introduction.I want you all to know and understand meand the twit that I have become.I suffer from BPD, depression, hysteria and paranoia.I have had the BPD Dx for about 2yrs, but I have never been "normal"I am here to support and be supported.I want to help people as much as I can.I am very unstable and reactive (sorry)I often write as I think- which is not always good!!!!!!!!!I am sorry to the people I have pissed off.I AM trying to keep myself in check!!I am vulnerable, have low self-esteem.I am however very empathetic and caring.-Daily tasks are a struggle.-Change is my aim - but I know it is a slow process.I have good days and bad - like you all I guess.I have been written off by the NHS,however, I am trying everyday.I wish I were in therapy - but am too "resistant"I have a BSc, PhD and my ABPI.Before my breakdown, I held a good careerand fitted into society.I don't any more.I joined the site in April and it has been a lifesaver for meI live alone in a rural no-wheresville, in ScotlandI live with my catsand flat-coated retreivers dogs- they keep me alive.My dogs and crafts are my life.I interact with few people in real life.I do not have family as suchand have no friends.I do have carers and a CPN and a SWUnfotunately they have been on holiday the past few weeksI lost the plot on TuesdayI wrote for Britain,my support worker from here did not call (unforseen circumstances)and I am open enough to say I lost it.I felt hated by the members of the siteI was completely irrationaland I took an OD.(Not the first)Today is the first time since then I have been on the site.I see it has changed.I hope people do not find the site depressing.Remember, we are a unique group!!!!!!!!!!Let's try to support each other.I may say the wrong thing at times- but I mean well.I want to support everyone here,I want to make friendsand hope that this site will continue to support me.I thank you all in advanceand look forward to meeting and making new friendsI am here for you allBest Wishespipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
only the lonely Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 Thanks I thought I was your friend Pip......just because I havent met you doesnot mean we are not mates.Lots of love and hugsOnly Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted September 22, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 Only,I felt Tuesday was a very bad day.I am trying to move on from itand let you guys know how erratically I thinkWe are friendspipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JTBadBug Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 Pip, I hope you are feeling a bit better Jane x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
beth79 Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 Hi pip, ive missed you, hope you are feeling better.Beth xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted September 22, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 (((Jane)))I am glad you are here.You are my doggy friendpipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted September 22, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 Thank you Bethpipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dolphin Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 welcome to the site pippyhope you enjoy your new lease of life here Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
poodle Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 hey Pip, glad you're around!Poodlex Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted September 22, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 Dolphin and PoodleYou are both sweeties!!!!!!!!pipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
innermuddle Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 pip, thanks for posting this, it is good to know where you are at and that you feel able to be so honest. I know things have been tough for you lately honey, I had no idea about your OD but i am glad you are ok and were not too poorly, you are a valued member of this site and would be so missed if you were not here. I know you feel lonely in your life honey but you make such a difference to the lives of people here, take that thought with you everywhere you go.I am glad to have gotten to know you my lovely Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted September 22, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 InnermuddleThank you for your kind response.The past weeks have been awfuland I suppose we just go from day to day.I just wanted to let everyone - old and newknow where I am!Thankspipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vorpalblade Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 PipEncantada conocerte Bladey Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Madeleine Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 Nice to see you back. x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted September 22, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 Thank you Maddy!It is nice to be back!!!!lovepipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mort Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 (((pip)))I'm glad you are back. You've been missed.It's already been said but you have many friends here and I hope you count me as one.I hope each step is a step towards a better place for you. tcmort x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted September 22, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 Thank you mortI didn't realise anyone knew I was missing! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vorpalblade Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 sure we did :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted September 22, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 Why thank you Blade. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vorpalblade Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 most welcome Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted September 22, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 Instead of being all negative and saying I had ODedI thought it would be nice for everyone to know whereand who I am.I don't think we need to be new to introduce ourselves.Perhaps we could have an update forum?Let people not miss out?Just an ideapipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ladyluck28 Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 (((Pip)) I missed you...hope im your friend.. :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted September 22, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 (((LadyLuck)))Thank you,We are friends.I just wanted people to understand a bit more about meand where I had been all week.I hope you are okpipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
aylaah Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 pip I think writing this was a great idea. I for one, feel like I can understand you better because of it and know from where you are coming from in your posts.thanks :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pip Posted September 22, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 Thanks AylaahI just wanted to reach peopleand help them understand me a bit moreI'm glad it worked!!!!!I hope you are ok (((Aylaah)))pipx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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