My Loneliness

[budgie]

I thought I was better, I did feel better

Or am I better? *Sigh. Self doubt never ceases.

Do u think loneliness, paranoia is part of BPD?

Self questioning? Superficiaility? Maybe.

Afterall, everything IS transient.

MY LONELINESS

A GAP. GASPING. GRASPING. NOTHING.

Shouting but, in Silence.

Hurting, in pain, emotionally.

Alone. Afterall. Still is. No one. But me.

Human Relations

So hard. Would it have been better

If we had not known each other?

Perhaps, yes. Yes. Its so hard.

To have known and lost, to yearn.

It cannot be, it will not be.

Why has life to be, so difficult?

I guess it would not be life,

If it had been easy

It would have been called Heaven

wouldnt it? ;)

[Betsy]

budgie,

i'm sorry every thing seems so confusing right now. it seems the roller coaster never stops long enough for us to get off. this too will pass, and you will be the singing budgie bird again. anyway you feel we are happy to hear from you. i guess life wasnt suppose to be easy... maybe it would have been called heaven if it were. at least this time is but a moment in existance.. hopefully the next will be better.

(((((( hugs ))))

bets