To Be Alone Or Not To Be Alone...

[LadyMacbeth]

I am just so frustrated with people and annoyed. I am at my father's house right now but I live in NY. My dad has a big house and for some reason there is always someone here and everyone always seems to be one one side of the house. It really annoys me because although sometimes I complain about being alone in NY. I can pick and choose if I want to be around people. But, here there is always someone around and I just cannot stand the noise and people smothering me all the time. Sometimes I feel so depressed when I am alone but then if I am surrounded by peope for too long I just want to get away from them. I used tohave my own room here but now my sister uses it for her own personal storage space so I cannot even walk in my room anymore. There is no room I can just go in and lock the door and be alone. I think I may actually have some peace and quiet tonight because I think that everyone is going out. I am keeping my fingers crossed that is the case. I am not sure if that is a BPD trait or I am just a miserable person. I JUST WISH EVERYONE WOULD GO OUT AND LEAVE ME IN PEACE FOR AN EVENING!!!!!!!! Sorry just venting.

Baila

[calyps]

vent away chick,

Anwen

[verbena]

Sometimes the only way to be is alone. And it is really hard to do, I know. Maybe the old standby - the only friend I have that hasn't let me down and never gets in my face - the bath.

[flippy]

you arent a miserable person just someone who wants some time and space and all of us need that.

i hope they all go out and you have a lovely evening. i was alone on boxing day and it was heaven.

tc

flippy