lostsoul Posted January 6, 2005 Report Share Posted January 6, 2005 I am in a weird head space, looking for a way out. I think I came in words. Sorry for the randomness. Ps i'm not religious, maybe just nuts. UH. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Death, only? I have no choice, in anything, not even in the smallest act or chosen word. Emerge, emerge, funny flung thing, into this story, you must come. To climb this winding stair, of incremental catastrophe - some do not even see they are so small. Each one. Wherein their eyes do look away and disregard; eyes that otherwise would love to pry where pretty things are found to lie, close off instead with sleuce of mind that's coming down. Watch out! Watch out! Tis coming fast! And there is nothing to be done! Fall down and pray! With bended knee, we hear them say; the best of efforts, the pith of almost anyone, can faulter on the path, and does, to tears and weary footsteps. Tell me, have you? For I have, and will again. How far down shall I fall this time, or next, onto the fashioned slabs below? And when I land, On 'others' tongues, how shall they speak when I am gone? Do I hear - fair? angry? misled? beguiled? ashamed? I hear them all, and more weep from the heart. And from my God I hear a moan; what happened, to my child? I say, why? Do you care, father? You gave me away without a thought for all the perils of this place and did it with a leader's face no wimper of regret! You set me up for hurt and loss, you made me step This way. Oh, why? To learn a lesson? What use has it I have to ask, what use? To bring myself to you? Is that what you believed to be the meaning of a life? Death, only? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Betsy Posted January 6, 2005 Report Share Posted January 6, 2005 It's more than death... I hope you feel it soon. ((((((((( hugs )))))))))))))))) bets Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lostsoul Posted January 6, 2005 Author Report Share Posted January 6, 2005 yeah, i hope i feel it too.. (((((((((((((bets))))))))))))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ginny Posted January 6, 2005 Report Share Posted January 6, 2005 oh honey - you are here for so much more than that - what beautfiul but saddening words....... Hopefully, one day soon you will find that enlightenment that makes you BELIEVE in what so many others can see and feel from you... Ginny PS. When you find it, can you tell me where it is too.... ;) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lostsoul Posted January 6, 2005 Author Report Share Posted January 6, 2005 ((((((((((((ginny)))))))))))) course i'll tell ya! :wub: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted January 6, 2005 Report Share Posted January 6, 2005 I agree with Betsy and Ginny! Did you write this? Have you published poetry before? I think you should try get some of your work published you are gifted. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lostsoul Posted January 6, 2005 Author Report Share Posted January 6, 2005 hi lady, yeeees, i take full responsibility for authorship. i was truly gone fishing last night and i didn't catch anything lol. a lot of words kept coming into my head and almost all of them were attached to these really strong emotional weathers. it was like, somone was sending them to me or something. as i was lying in bed last night i suddenly said to mike; whispers' hatch, and i have no idea why. i am feeling more normal today i think it might have been residual effects of the risperdal. to be honest i wasn't sure what i had posted up until i looked this morning. i was cringing to look in case it was just total drivel. hmm. anyway. no comment about that ! yeah i have written a lot of 'stuff'. in the early days it was all suicide notes. i know it's grim but i have kept them all. oh no hold on the first thing i wrote was about england's countryside! and how 'of all the places i have been (which actually wasn't very many; just jersey, france and the isle of white!) i much prefer this country green'. yUK! since then it has progressed and i now very rarely write suicide notes, and focus more on stuff about nature or how i am feeling (typical egocentric.. me me me!). anyway. thanks for the compliment. my understanding of my abilities is that i am 'ok' and every nine months or so, as with child birth, I push out quite a good one. but then there are those awful ones you write that you try not to believe you created because they are just so terrible in every way; these are the ones i write every other week, and they feel awkward to cleave from the mind, like having a constipated shit! And then there are those you write, often about very intense involving events, that come straight from the heart and that impact transfers through the piece onto others and they are very touched by it. And those ones come rushing out with ease, like a funny tummy! i would not get them published because i am not that good. but it is something i love to do, and maybe one day, when i have acquired the wisdom and experience with which to write very good things, then maybe i will give publishing a whirl. but not yet. there is much work to be done! ((((((((((((((((hugs lady)))))))))))))))) you say nice things :rolleyes: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted January 6, 2005 Report Share Posted January 6, 2005 Don't put yourself down! You have a real gift with words especially when it comes to describing how you are feeling. You are good at it!!!!!!!!!!That remind me we need to talk about our book. I will have full access to my library next week so if I need to research anything. Love, LM Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lostsoul Posted January 6, 2005 Author Report Share Posted January 6, 2005 yeah people always tell me that. i must start listening to people!!!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexa Posted January 6, 2005 Report Share Posted January 6, 2005 (((((((((((((((((((lostsoul)))))))))))))))))))))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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