Lauren Posted January 20, 2005 Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 Tender thoughts and violent images-- the out of focus aim of that ghastly thing. Ashes to ashes-- in a little head world, she all falls down over baby dolls and parcheesi. It ain't gonna suck itself. Pocket full of memories-- torn open showing attracted my attention nodding knowing who's your daddy. He could of been in his high school or at the bar mighta made a funny joke about cousins and sisters and fathers and brothers and he may of laughed might of laughed last summer. but it's autumn--things die in autumn. I'm ashamed for even wanting it and wonder what I'd do with it and how it would add what it would add what would it mean can it be separate and unequal? at one time, I thought that if anyone can have meaningless sex, it would have to be me with you but now I see that's not true. It means too much coming from him. Can you be the beginning of the terminal condition for that other thing the ghastly thing the wasps the smashed dolls the dirty girls. Mum told me to tell you it's OK. you like it don't you? hold it right here. kiss it for daddy. make me feel good. just this last time. I love you so much. It won't take long. Who's your daddy? I want to help me forget him. simple physics 2 things can't occupy the same place at the same time screaming when you cum is better than screaming from the nightmares. Who's your daddy? and how could he? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted January 20, 2005 Author Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 yuck, It was uncomplete and done in a hurry. It needs some serious work. But guess it served its purpose for me this evening. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
verbena Posted January 20, 2005 Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 It's amazing that we don't murder more of the fucking bastards. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted January 20, 2005 Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 I like it. It was deep and intense. Wow. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted January 20, 2005 Author Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 I need to eat comfort food, and take time to reflect after that. For some reason this one has really taken it out of me. Back when the diazepam kicks in all. xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted January 20, 2005 Author Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 Bacon, mushrooms, toast and beans I think. Screw the diet tonight. God, im feeling so weird from this. I hate my anti-spychotic brain at times. :P Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
verbena Posted January 20, 2005 Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 Me too. I'm eating puppy chow. And shaking. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted January 20, 2005 Author Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 You ok ann? I havent upset you with this have I? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted January 20, 2005 Author Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 If so I will have it removed :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted January 20, 2005 Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 :hug2: If I ever become a social worker I am gonna put those fucking bastards away! Or maybe chop of their you know whats. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted January 20, 2005 Author Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 Lady, I think you mean if you ever become a judge :P Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted January 20, 2005 Author Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 food, benzos, hotwater and lemon, low lights and candles and a dose of dennis in enders should fix things up. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lostsoul Posted January 20, 2005 Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 ((((((lorna)))))) :huh: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted January 20, 2005 Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 Well, maybe I will just take all the children in under my wing and care for them and make sure they never have to go through something like that again. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
verbena Posted January 20, 2005 Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 You ok ann? I havent upset you with this have I? <{POST_SNAPBACK}> No, I went out for a cigarette and listened to other people laugh. It's fine. It happened. Can't change that. It's fine. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted January 20, 2005 Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 I am crying because I am so angry and disgusted at these motherfuckers. Why the fuck does this happen? So many people in this world like this site that are such good people like all of you have been put through hell and back and its not any of your faults and you suffer for it. They need to be shot! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
verbena Posted January 20, 2005 Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 LM, I liked your other idea better. The one about becoming a social worker and cutting off their you know whats! If I had known that was part of the job, I'd have tried harder to get through college. Have I told you today that you are a precious girl? XX Ann Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted January 20, 2005 Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 Thanks but I do not feel it. I can't stop crying but I feel like I am actually feeling the pain. I have not really felt anything in such along time. I want my mum but she is not there and wasn't there when I was growing up. It hurts and I can't control anything. I don't feel like I am in crisis I am just feeling the pain. Feeling it for the entire world if that makes any sense. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
verbena Posted January 20, 2005 Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 ((((((((((((((((((((((LM))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ginny Posted January 20, 2005 Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 Lorna - I dont know what to say ((((((((hugs))))))) Ginny :mellow: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bpmonki Posted January 20, 2005 Report Share Posted January 20, 2005 lorna i dont know what to say just wanted u to know i read it Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
budgie Posted January 23, 2005 Report Share Posted January 23, 2005 Lorna. The Hate. Never. Subside. Bud. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
paddypotty Posted January 23, 2005 Report Share Posted January 23, 2005 Brilliant piece of poetry and very honest,I admire you particularly for being able to write about this,I can only talk around the edges. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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