bluebird Posted March 3, 2008 Report Share Posted March 3, 2008 After an awful week where everything went to pot, I've picked myself up [still not 100%] and trying to achieve 7 things in 7 days:1:Today I managed to recover from unexpectedly seeing someone who has hurt me in the past - I was devestated, shocked, completely thrown, felt sick, felt suicidal actually.....and then went on to do some physical work for someone [as I had promised and hate to let people down], and worked through it! Didn't contact anyone, did it on my own. Strangely I saw someone I knew wasnt at work [very unusual] and I popped in for a chat, that helped and took my mind off things - I did NOT mention the incident. Dealt with it! Myself!2: I got an answer to something I put on another message board - to see if someone wanted to do walks in this area. Have PM'd but yet to get a reply. However I tried and got a response even if it fizzles out.3: Just had a long talk with family member re: events in the past, putting them in the picture. This is amazing - that they were ready to listen. They wanted to know - and its about time the skeletons in the closet/secrets/lies were aired. If it backfires at least I told them what they wanted to know - and spoke the truth.4 to go.......... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rachel_31_uk Posted March 3, 2008 Report Share Posted March 3, 2008 well done Blue, im pleased for you xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
beamfrostold Posted March 3, 2008 Report Share Posted March 3, 2008 well done blue :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bluebird Posted March 4, 2008 Author Report Share Posted March 4, 2008 Number 4: I went up to the local school a short walk from where I live and asked if they need any volunteers to help with the childrens reading or numeracy. I know my d-i-l does this sometimes.I may not get anything but am awaiting a phone call.At least I tried. If nothing comes of it I will go to another school which is nearby..... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Marchmadness Posted March 4, 2008 Report Share Posted March 4, 2008 Bluebird -Excellent. Those are some really postive and BIG steps there. Veryimpressive. Keep up the good work.March Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bluebird Posted March 4, 2008 Author Report Share Posted March 4, 2008 Marchmadness - I try like this all the time, yet come to dead ends, or it fizzles out to nothing. The problem is getting fresh ideas as to how I can move on, get into the mainstream on life and have a purpose, meet new people.While theres life theres hope as they say........ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Marchmadness Posted March 4, 2008 Report Share Posted March 4, 2008 bluebird -You know how you are feeling now, that sense of accomplishment, pride, hold onto that when you are starting to feel down.Marchmadness Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
19ellie Posted March 4, 2008 Report Share Posted March 4, 2008 Well done ! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shellybelly Posted March 4, 2008 Report Share Posted March 4, 2008 hey blueyour achievment are excellentand you statement "where there life there hope"dont ever lose that its a great thing to believe inim really really proud of youhugs yamickey Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bluebird Posted March 4, 2008 Author Report Share Posted March 4, 2008 Thanks Mickey - appreciated. Hope is all we have sometimes eh? And its a good thing to have. Hope youre okhugs in return xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rael Posted March 5, 2008 Report Share Posted March 5, 2008 you are doing really well, dont let thoughts of what 'could' happen ruin what you have worked so hard to achieve. well doneall the bestdonnaxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bluebird Posted March 5, 2008 Author Report Share Posted March 5, 2008 Thanks all....today I went to a different scrabble club, not knowing anyone initially - and stuck it out. Got info about things that are going on in my town which I knew nothing about - so something else to look into....So that was acheivement number 5! - as I find this sort of stuff excrutiating, and mixing with strangers difficult. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
19ellie Posted March 5, 2008 Report Share Posted March 5, 2008 Excellent! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bluebird Posted March 6, 2008 Author Report Share Posted March 6, 2008 No 6: Today I walked into town again - that means I've walked about 12 miles in 2 days [got to burn some calories off!]. And I treated myself to seeing a film, which I enjoyed and one that made me think about life and it's meaning - interesting....I walk because I think, I work things out, I'm distracted so much I don't notice how far I've walked. Also just had one ciggie today - trying to recover from the battering I had last week [and on Monday].They are NOT going to get me down, no way, no low lives are going to affect my life! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rachel_31_uk Posted March 6, 2008 Report Share Posted March 6, 2008 OMG i am sooooooooo proud of you blueyour an incredible ladyand i am glad to have the pleasure of knowing you!HugsRachxxxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Marchmadness Posted March 6, 2008 Report Share Posted March 6, 2008 Blue -Good for you!!!!!! You are doing so well.I hope it continues for you.Marchmadness Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bluebird Posted March 6, 2008 Author Report Share Posted March 6, 2008 Hey thanks marchmadmess and rach, for your encouragement, it's lovely to meet you on these boards. x These acknowledgements of achievements are helping me think of new things to do and I'm going to go down fighting if nothing else..... ;) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rael Posted March 7, 2008 Report Share Posted March 7, 2008 those are really good achievements really well done, especially on the ciggies as i know how hard it is to not smoke.all the bestdonnaxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rain Posted March 7, 2008 Report Share Posted March 7, 2008 C.-I am moved by seeing all of these positive things you have been doing, they took guts and strength! They are wonderful accomplishments, they truly are. I'm really happy for you and I hope these positives bring about a nice new change in your life, some kind goodhearted people and a self-fulfilled feeling for you.You are great! One more to go! I'm rooting for you, bluebird Love,N. xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Toni10 Posted March 7, 2008 Report Share Posted March 7, 2008 C.-I am moved by seeing all of these positive things you have been doing, they took guts and strength! They are wonderful accomplishments, they truly are. I'm really happy for you and I hope these positives bring about a nice new change in your life, some kind goodhearted people and a self-fulfilled feeling for you.You are great! One more to go! I'm rooting for you, bluebird Hay Bluebird, I am really bad at words so I am stealing them from Rain, I love seeing how well people are doing.. and the things you have done are insprinational, they make me want to go out and keep living.. you are sending me hope in your achievements hope that I can do the same. good on you beautiful. hugs Toni xxoo Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bluebird Posted March 7, 2008 Author Report Share Posted March 7, 2008 Why thank you N for your supportive words [and I hope you are ok rain] - I know good hearted people exist and will keep searching! [Plenty on here though, and that helps a lot] Toni - nice to meet you.Number 7: [i'm sick of not being being given any help or offered therapies, just told there is nothing anyone can do, I was sent off in 1999 to 'manage' my life - and my CPTSD - as best I can.....! I only found out the BPD diagnosis was written in my notes 12 years ago, at the end of November 2007!]So this week I bought 'Cognitive Behaviour Therapy for Dummies' this week, and will read it from cover to cover and teach it to myself!I have also found a self help Dialectal Behaviour Therapy website, and will go through it all online.[This could all take some time!]I'll educate myself, as I have done with every other area of my life......Maybe I can check out anything I don't understand with my counsellor and on here if that's ok. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rael Posted March 7, 2008 Report Share Posted March 7, 2008 well done, proactive and determined behaviour. i like it. really well done.all the bestdonnaxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Faerielight Posted March 7, 2008 Report Share Posted March 7, 2008 well done bluebird.. what is the dbt site? id be interested in it too. hugs, bluebell x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shellybelly Posted March 7, 2008 Report Share Posted March 7, 2008 hey bluecongrats on doing so welland im really proud of you its great to see how well you are doing well donehugs yamickey Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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