Lauren Posted February 3, 2005 Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 Could do with seeing a doctor. im hurting physicaly a fair bit. Could do with putting my son in to nursery for the day to give him a break from me and to get some rest. But i feel to ashamed, to dirty to fucking stupid to leave the house. My son wants to make cakes. I need eggs means going to the shop. Means looks, means faking it all. I am a crap mother. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted February 3, 2005 Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 WHY don't you force yourself really hard to take a shower get dressed and go to the store. Get a lot of chocolate while you are at it as well and indulge. Maybe reny a really good movie where you would be laughing all night. The American Pie the Wedding is hysterical. Just a thought. If you really can't get up and go its okay does not mean you are a crap mother. I just know that sometimes I have to force my ass out of the house and I actually do start to feel better. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted February 3, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 Why? because i look like a freak show. Because my brain is a mess and I cant take the looks today without crying in public. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted February 3, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 lol im a muppet. Reckon you can bruise your ribs without a bruise coming up straight away? Would of thought with that it would have been fairly instant. But the pain when i breath in ,on one side , feels like im being stabbed (well kinda, expect being stabbed hurts more though ) plus it feels like im not taking in as much air as before but that may be in my head in relation to the pain. Teaches me for being such a dim wit. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Betsy Posted February 3, 2005 Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 lorna... i have a recipe for an eggless cake... seriously tho.. you are not a crap mother.. not a crap anything. you are going thru a bad time now. we have all been there.. u have been there many times before. you know this will pass. keep posting and venting and crying and talking and what ever makes you feel good. bets Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted February 3, 2005 Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 Why do your ribs hurt? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted February 3, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 lol, whats the recipe? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted February 3, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 fell down the stairs pissed last night. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted February 3, 2005 Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 Go beautify yourself...and then go out and picture all everyone in their underwear to make you laugh. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted February 3, 2005 Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 Oh shit...ouch! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Betsy Posted February 3, 2005 Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 Chocolate Wacky Cake (lol that really is it's name!) 1.5 c flour 1 c sugar 3 Tablespoons powdered cocoa 1 teaspoon salt 1 teaspoon soda stir together add: 1 teaspoon vanilla 1c water 6 Tablespoons liquid shortening 1 Tablespoon vinegar stir together and put in a greased 8x8 pan. bake at 350 degrees for 30 minutes cool and frost Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted February 3, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 hey thanks bets! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted February 3, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 whats liquid shortening? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Betsy Posted February 3, 2005 Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 i've made it lots and little kids can help and it is so simple and you dont end up with a big cake (which i feel compelled to eat all of ) bets Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Betsy Posted February 3, 2005 Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 oil.. cooking oil.. but don't use olive oil if you dont have regular oil you can melt shortening and use that. bets Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted February 3, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 thanks Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted February 3, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 I hate everyone. I hate myself. I look fucking awfull. Even let myself fall into a stupid pity party. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted February 3, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 light bulb momment. (maybe) Possibly its because if someone else is hurting me I dont have to do it myself? There seems to be a pattern in that. I force people away I care about to hurt and punish myself. I take crap jobs to make myself feel useless. Maybe worth looking at more. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Paula Posted February 3, 2005 Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 light bulb momment. (maybe) Possibly its because if someone else is hurting me I dont have to do it myself? There seems to be a pattern in that. I force people away I care about to hurt and punish myself. I take crap jobs to make myself feel useless. Maybe worth looking at more. <{POST_SNAPBACK}> i have just realised that too Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted February 3, 2005 Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 I have done that too and still do to an extent when I feel rejected. I then look at what I am doing to other people who do care about me and I really try to make the effort to stop doing it. I have hurt people more by doing it and its a wake up call because I love these people so much. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kazzapants Posted February 3, 2005 Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 Lorna are you sure you've not broken a rib? It certainly sounds like it. Although not a doctor I am a practising gynaecologist, so do feel qualified to comment!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted February 3, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 feels like im lying to you all. just cant get it straight for myself to come out and say it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Paula Posted February 3, 2005 Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 :bigarmhug[1]: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted February 3, 2005 Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 I know the feeling. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted February 3, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 3, 2005 I dont know. Fuck, its just such a stupid mess. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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