Achievements

[OceanCarol]

I got out of the house and paid 3 bills, did another errand, took myself out to lunch...lol bought myself some shoes (Its been 2 years since I did that!)

I did have trouble speaking to the lady at the store and the restaurant, but I didn't let it get to me that much. I felt like I made a fool of myself, but I am not depressed about it. I think that's an achievement.

An old coworker of mine came over to the house, and I told her that when I was working with her way back in the late 90's to early 2000's I had depression, anxiety and talked to her about what happened at my work with my boss and how it changed me from being happy to sad, and that I apologized for being so angry back then, but that I lost my trust in a lot of people.

She understood, it was not an easy conversation because I lost a lot of friends because of this, and it felt like a weight lifted off of my shoulders.

I also emailed another coworker of mine during the same job, but didn't talk about anything personal, just nice to know that she wrote back. This is the friend that I adored so much, but when I crashed back then so did our friendship, but it wasn't her fault, or my fault...it was the circumstances. I hope one day that I can really understand that and not keep blaming myself for it. I think this is an achievement because I am looking at it differently.

I don't know where to type this, I just wanted to type it somewhere....I feel like talking but I don't know who I can talk to.

[rain]

Hey Carol,

Your achievements are really great. Well done for being so brave as to have such conversations and reaching out. It's also a great step forward for you to have treated yourself well and to have been out and about. I know how hard that can be sometimes. The fact that you didn't take it to heart that you thought your interactions with those strangers didn't go well, is a major achievement too!

In short: I'm really glad for you that you have accomplished these things. You should feel pretty proud of yourself

Have a lovely day,

Rain x

[OceanCarol]

Thank you Rain, you too. :)

[Primal Scream]

These are great achievements! Very well done!

Primal xx

[Rael]

those are great things to have achieved and i can see how difficult they must have been and how relieved you must have felt for doing them. well done.

all the best

donna

xxx

[OceanCarol]

Thanks rael and scream.

1 This morning when my husband upset me, (He told me to "let him be", he's the only one working it was about his sports and work...I was upset because I don't work, but I do take care of our baby and the house, I think that's quite a bit of work also. I enjoy being a stay at home mom, and I am in no way controlling or anything and I was upset by him saying that.)

I didn't say anything right away, I waited a few minutes and told him that I wasn't upset, but that I was hurt. I think he understood. He gave me a hug and said he's sorry.

2 I practiced three days of breathing and I've been trying to monitor my mood. I've had a lot of anxiety these past few days...like on a high or something, but my mood has been good.

Anxiety high, mood good, stress medium.

3 I went out yesterday to exchange my baby's shoes for the next size up, I didn't have any problem, but the employee did, when he bent down to fix my baby's shoes....he ripped his pants.....I told him don't worry about it.....

[Primal Scream]

These are more fantastic achievements!

You did so well, keeping calm and sorting out your issues with your hubby, thats such a big step. It sounds like the breathing exercises are really helping. Well done and keep up the good work!

Thinking of you

Primal xx