Binge Eating/food Obsession

[EAD]

Im not sure where to start really

Ive just been referred to the mental and eating disorder unit as I went to the doctor with food issues. I gave up the cigs April 07, put on 1 stone in 16 weeks and then joined Weightwatchers, and battled for another 32 weeks to lose the stone. In 14 weeks I nearly put it on again and I now realise my eating habits and thoughts about food are not normal. I think about food from I wake until I go to sleep, I eat when im not hungry and until I feel sick.

I weight 8st 8lbs and feel and think I am fat as thats all I see in the mirror.

Im single since Dec 06 and cant imagine being with anyone as i feel fat and unattractive and would hate for anyone to see me naked.

I feel guilty when I eat though cant seem to stop myself. If theres food in the fridge I will eat it so try to shop on a daily basis.

I just cant go on living like this as its a constant battle in my own head which I never seem to win

Going back in my life I didnt have the best childhood and left home at 16 to live with a mentally and physically abusive guy who raped me. Any relationships since then have failed. Not sure if thats relevant to how I am now though.

[yorkiegal73]

hi EAD

Well done for taking a step forward and arranging a referral to the eating disorder unit. I hope they're able to help you. I binge eat every day and food is something that takes up my thoughts until I've done it. I am very overweight though whereas you appear to be underweight so i'm guessing you're purging? I shop on a daily basis too. It's the only way I can stop myself from going too overboard.

I would have thought your past experiences are very relevant to your self esteem and need for control over food. I sometimes see my binges as a big Fuck You to the world for messing me up. But they only hurt me in the end.

Good luck with the referral!

take care

yorkie xx

[bumblepipi]

Good that you are getting help. I can relate to feeling fat and I see myself as bigger than anyone else. At the moment cause I have given up the booze I am gorging on chocolate and I just hate it. I am arranging a food timetable and diary for next week so I don't keep putting on weight. When I feel bad I tend to purge a lot. For me I think it's a form of control and punishment. I sometimes feel that I must be empty inside Like everything else is a contamination. really glad you can get some help cause these things tend to take over. I'm trying to keep myself under control but it's so hard.

[EAD]

Thanks Yorkie and Bumble

I dont purge but I walk miles upon miles with my dogs and that seems to keep the weight off to a certain extent but it slowly creeps on and I dont know where it will stop. Ive thought about getting slimming pills as I just cant stay away from the food.

[SKyler1311]

I also have serious food issues, and it seems to be on my mind constantly, I am morbidly obese at the moment, and trying to lose weight, but even when I feel strong, something will creep into my mind, and will nag at me until I eat it, for example, I went shopping, bought fruit and veg, and healthy food, but saw some cakes that I really like on buy 1 get 1 free, I didn't buy them, but they were in my head constantly, and eventually I went and got them, it is seriously an obsession or addiction, sometimes I go and buy loads of chocolate, crisps and cakes etc, then get home, feel guilty after a bar, and give them all to my neices and nephews, I am due to see a specialist for some tests, they did even mention weight loss surgery on the nhs, but my gp doesn't thimk I'm mentally competant enough to make the decision.

[buttercup_vix]

Hey EAD

Well done for making the first step towards recovery by getting a referral

I'd urge you not to even consider slimming pills

There are so many risks with them

Many of the over the counter products aren't even licensed medications

Some of them are unsuitable for people with certain conditions and many interact with other medication

Plus they don't really work, the reason they have supposed results is because people change their diet and exercise

If you are really set on slimming pills, go and see your doctor

They can prescribe pills that actually work, although at 8st 8lbs chances are you don't really need them

I hope you get the help you need

xXx

[KarmaKitty]

I have the same issue, what I have been doing that helps....

-Drinking more water, makes me feel fuller faster

-Trying to walk once a day

-Shopping daily and only buying healthy foods

-Having veggies or fruit if I really have to binge

-Stopping smoking pot...or trying.....

[Faerielight]

hi.. its good uve got a referral.. i hope they can help.. just to reassure you 8 stone 8 is not overweight at all, but i know what its like to have a distorted body image.. i have ed too.

hope you can get some help with this and heres a good place to post!

hugs faerie x

[Wobbles]

I too have a very big issue with food. I am morbidly obese, and had a gastric bypass in October. I am losing weight, however, i am still obsessed with food, while i physically can't eat, i still think about it every minute of the day. I always have, hence my weight, i used to eat when i wasn't hungry, i would eat until i felt like iw as going to explode, and then eat some more. I know i have always had a problem with food, but now instead of eating it, i still think about it all the time, and don't know how to fix it.