Mindgames

[hoodbran1]

I need to get this out there for other people to read:

I just got off speaking to someone who claimed to be my daughter on MSN a quick lowdown; she was taken away from my care over 6 months ago and it's been very tough living but i have anyways, here's the chat transcript:

Never give out your password or credit card number in an instant message conversation.

Lady sovereign fan says:

hi

Demis says:

hey again sweetie

Demis says:

have you finished on habbo or whatever you were doing?

Lady sovereign fan says:

yes you?

Demis says:

me?... im bored stupid! i cant watch telly, there's nothing on! im sooo bored

Lady sovereign fan says:

me too, i am bored...

Demis says:

the cat is out, ian aint here

Demis says:

all alone as usual

Demis says:

but i got my regular hospital appointment tomorrow

Lady sovereign fan says:

good luck with that

Lady sovereign fan says:

Demis says:

it's always the highlight of the week for me, i still go 3 times a week, they reckon another ear and i should be fine

Demis says:

*year

Demis says:

silly me

Lady sovereign fan says:

will you put ya face pic on for me to see?

Lady sovereign fan says:

lol

Lady sovereign fan says:

Demis says:

i dont have the right version, else i would... *sigh*

Lady sovereign fan says:

update it then, its easy to do

Lady sovereign fan says:

my mum showed me how to do it

Demis says:

i'll send you a pic of me and Caitlin to your gmail

Lady sovereign fan says:

ok then, but i have a new email addy that i am starting to use

Demis says:

what is it?

Demis says:

(prolly why you never get any of my emails i send)

Lady sovereign fan says:

DrivalSaints@live.com

Lady sovereign fan says:

please dont tell anyone else

Demis says:

who, like Santa?

Lady sovereign fan says:

promise?

Demis says:

of course i do!

Lady sovereign fan says:

thanks

Lady sovereign fan says:

Demis says:

i just came out of hospital again last week

Lady sovereign fan says:

what did the doctours say?

Demis says:

nothing really, it was a crisis admission... i cant wait till you get a little older then i can help you make sense of why i go in sometimes

Demis says:

i was there for 6 days

Lady sovereign fan says:

shame

Lady sovereign fan says:

Lady sovereign fan says:

shall we met up for a laugh soon

Lady sovereign fan says:

go shopping

Demis says:

for a laugh? - sure id like to meet up, it would help stop me going round in circles in my mind

Demis says:

and i could buy you some new things

Lady sovereign fan says:

tommorrow then?

Lady sovereign fan says:

if you are well enough

Lady sovereign fan says:

Demis says:

but you need to speak with your mother about that... TOMORROW??!!

Lady sovereign fan says:

i wont tell her

Demis says:

huh??

Demis says:

how are you going to get anywhere without telling her?

Lady sovereign fan says:

i will get a bus

Lady sovereign fan says:

shuuush

Demis says:

sweeeeeetie

Demis says:

you're not old enough and you could get in trouble

Lady sovereign fan says:

ok, then dont matter

Demis says:

i know you mean well

Demis says:

can i call you later tonight on your mobile? - dont worry i wont repeat anything you said

Lady sovereign fan says:

ok

Demis says:

phew!!!

Demis says:

LOL

Demis says:

are you happy there?

Lady sovereign fan says:

im ok

Lady sovereign fan says:

thanks

Demis says:

i hope you know that the time you got left at school had nothing to do with me not loving you or abandoning you! - i got really ill during that day and did things i was not aware of...

Demis says:

and i still beat myself up over it all cos you would be here today

Lady sovereign fan says:

Wait. this isnt kim

Demis says:

WTF!

(Chat ends here as I save this file and start a new one)

Lady sovereign fan says:

hi, its hailies mum here, are you still about?

Demis says:

yup

Lady sovereign fan says:

sorry about that, when you said youwas going to take her out and buy her things i went berserk

Lady sovereign fan says:

sorry

Demis says:

i just sent kim a txt telling her to change her password, im her dad...

Lady sovereign fan says:

i know now, ok best log out then...

Demis says:

it's a gd thing looking out, but i discussed personal things between me and kim, pls ensure it doesnt go anywhere

Lady sovereign fan says:

it was worse because hailie and kim asked me today if they could get a bus to fosse park with out an adult, i was scared they was meeting some perve off the net

Lady sovereign fan says:

no, i shant mention this to anyone

Lady sovereign fan says:

if you dont cos i look stupid now

Demis says:

bloody hell she is way too young to get a bus, so tiny, she'll fall between the wheels and the driver wouldnt notice

Demis says:

hehe dont worry

Demis says:

this'll be between us

Lady sovereign fan says:

i thought that too, we shouldnt really let them yet

Demis says:

this is why i so desperately want her home cos i cant be sure she's safe

Lady sovereign fan says:

cool. shes a great kid is kim

Lady sovereign fan says:

im sure she is, i dont know her mum, but kim isnt stupid i dont think, one of the better kids in the village

Demis says:

well, she has my son also, Lewis (her brother) so maybe she'll stay good... i was about to give her fatherly advice and tell her to stay away from boys and such then ur bf fessed up

Demis says:

lol

Lady sovereign fan says:

lol,

Lady sovereign fan says:

ok, well i will bid you goodnite then, and i hope you get better soon

Demis says:

anyways im gonna get off... Im Demis, Kims dad.... i hope so too and keep that part between us, i dont need lindsey having anno

Demis says:

ciao

Lady sovereign fan says:

ok, keep it quiet, i wont say a word. im maria, my partner is kev

Lady sovereign fan says:

ciao

Demis says:

bye.

- I am utterly pissed off, i was tricked into talking to someone who got personal information from me so I signed in to my daughter's account and her mum was online, this is what she says (i am now using my daughters account)

Never give out your password or credit card number in an instant message conversation.

Lindsey says:

hi

Kimmy says:

Lindsey, it's Demis. I just spent the last 1/2 hour talking to Maria and Kev who pretended to be Kim and got information from me, i'm not so pissed only tell kim to change her pw

Kimmy says:

this is Lindsey, right?

Lindsey says:

yes

Kimmy says:

k

Kimmy says:

grossly unfair i know they were trying to look after her but it was clear it was me from the outset, kev (kimmy) was gonna meet at a bus stop and run away, i got really concerned, couldve had implications

Lindsey says:

she will change it, she must have still been signed in at her friends house when she came home at 7.30

Kimmy says:

i told maria i wouldnt say anything, so you shouldnt either...

Kimmy says:

how is she?

Kimmy says:

and maria says they (kim and her friend danielle perhaps) wanted to go to fosse park w/o an adult

Lindsey says:

i'm sorry I don't even know these people I will sort it out

Kimmy says:

thats ok... dont mention it to them, i dont want to cause rifts in your village

Lindsey says:

no its not okay

Kimmy says:

it could have resulted in me coming for kim and it all seemed way out of context.... im glad it was exposed beforehand...

Kimmy says:

before i go;

Kimmy says:

is there any chance whatsoever i can see her some week end, if only for a few hours?

Kimmy says:

i dont drive anymore as my american license ran out

Lindsey says:

right

Kimmy says:

right?...

Kimmy says:

that is i dont have a car... (she waits like 6 minutes before replying)

Kimmy says:

so, do i do what i have been and stay in limbo?

Lindsey says:

i don't know

Lindsey says:

got to go

Kimmy says:

i aint about to run off with her lindsey, i am deeply involved in things that would make it impossible for me...

Kimmy says:

ok

Luckily I have therapy tomorrow then i might seek to force her to bring her to me by the courts if she wants to play bitch... man i hope that particle collider things wipes out this miserable planet full of egocentricity. my problem is I still can't cope - I have lost focus and cant see where I am going or what I shall do next, I need a job to help my financial situation but am afraid of fucking it up, the mind games I experience are way too cruel, I feel that my children are being kept hidden away from me and I get delusional thinking it would be safer for me to be in Jail or locked away indefinately, so I begin plotting ways to make it happen, including murder.

I want to live a normal life and I dont want to do some of the things I get placed with, because someone will get hurt, I am volatile one moment, peaceful the next, I am considering lodging a court case for my ex wife sex offender to force her to let me see my kids, im in this predicament because of sex offenders and my ex is one.... so unless she wants me to expose her and mess up another family so I get heard then I guess it has to be...

I would move with a religious community and work for free if only I can stop being alone and this way! - Anyone know of any communities currently accepting? Jail has places so does Broadmoor, the qualifying rules are against my nature though...