x.glitter_raindrops.x Posted November 9, 2008 Report Share Posted November 9, 2008 Going down in my own ocean of tears,these lungs fill with desperation and selfish fears,choking, coughing, beginning to splutter,pushing away further the love of another.clutching hold of his hand,dragging him away from safe, dry land.pulling away from everything real,going under and can no longer feel.He's holding on for dear life,my giving up twists in the knife,letting go of breath like I no longer care,His head above water, but I'm no longer there.Can't see, can't feel, won't speak,numb with pain and things look bleak,refused to work agains the tide,even when he was fighting my side.I didn't listen,I should have held on,I pulled him under and pushed it all away,Now he's gone.I love him.But it's too lateRefusal too fightLost him tonight. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rael Posted November 9, 2008 Report Share Posted November 9, 2008 thats really good, really emotive hun. hope you are okxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
x.glitter_raindrops.x Posted November 9, 2008 Author Report Share Posted November 9, 2008 Thanks hunI guess Im okIn painkeeps switching from dull ache and me not reli focusing to this sharp pain i have right now and keep cryingbeen about a week now but hey nvmhow are you??xxxXxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rael Posted November 9, 2008 Report Share Posted November 9, 2008 im not too good but its mostly physical pain so better than usual are you managing to keep busy at all? i know when i have gone through losses of any kind the thing that has helped has been anything that makes my mind work super fast, writing, reading a light-hearted book (terry pratchett is great for this) loud music. anything to keep your mind off the painful thingsxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
x.glitter_raindrops.x Posted November 9, 2008 Author Report Share Posted November 9, 2008 Trying to keep myself busyI guess my OCD is being a help atmuseful for somethings I guesslolgot quite dissociative for the last hour or twoits weirdand scaryI wish i could make things right why you in so much pain my dear??xxxXxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rael Posted November 9, 2008 Report Share Posted November 9, 2008 ah mines just 'time of the month' stuff bloody stomach playing upahhh actually ocd is keeping me busy too, im ordering my cd's into alphabetical order and is taking me bloody ageshave you tried grounding techniques? stuff like banging your feet on the floor and that, there is stuff pinned here to go through that may helpxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
x.glitter_raindrops.x Posted November 9, 2008 Author Report Share Posted November 9, 2008 Actually I havnt, but I think i need to go look at that postOh hun, i know exactly how you're feeling right now. Damn girly issuesIve just started looking up things so I can do my synth dreads.one of my freidns have decided were gonna have a day full of backcombing and twisting(and ok maybe the odd smoke....shhhh)lolIts my 18th in a week, and I dont even think im exited anymorethanks xxxXxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rael Posted November 9, 2008 Report Share Posted November 9, 2008 synth dreads well cool do we get a photo??? it my birthday this week and i forgot about it, just not interested really, mind you mine is 28 so getting a little too close to 30 for my liking you got anything planned for it, maybe you will enjoy it when it comes(advanced happy birthday)xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
x.glitter_raindrops.x Posted November 9, 2008 Author Report Share Posted November 9, 2008 When i can get them sorted you shall definately have piccies =]cant go in live chat suckslol coz i cant sleepagainxxxxXxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
x.glitter_raindrops.x Posted November 9, 2008 Author Report Share Posted November 9, 2008 and nope, nothing planned yetwant a party but cant have onexx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rael Posted November 9, 2008 Report Share Posted November 9, 2008 why cant you have a party? maybe you could go for a meal or something, or if not going out treat yourself to a film to watch in or somethingim gonna be up all night i think, i got the need to order things xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
x.glitter_raindrops.x Posted November 9, 2008 Author Report Share Posted November 9, 2008 I need help.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rael Posted November 9, 2008 Report Share Posted November 9, 2008 is there anything i can do hun? xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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