Confused, Repulsed, Dissapointed

[x.glitter_raindrops.x]

Starting to feel rather hopeless now

Ive been denying that I have a problem for years, since I was in school

I dont feel like I can admit now

but Im struggling

Im more disappointed in myslef then worried I have a problem

because I dont really eat much

I cant stand the thought of food

or how people get pleasure out of eating

recently its even more so

i feel physically repulsed at the fact of even looking at food

Normally I can go ages without eating

I dont even get hungry

thats not my problem

my problem is myself

and my own lack of self control

if i hate food so much why have i been bingeing so much?

i still dont get hungry

I dont even eat dinner reguarly anymore,

normally i wouldnt eat all day except my dinner

but then all of a sudden without thinking i find myslef eating the most ridiculous things

in stupid amounts

which makes me feel ten times worse

and its making me sick now

I dont know why im posting this really

I guess I just need an opinion

I need someone to slap me in the face and say hey, your fine

now stop the bingeing and you will be fine!!

i dont know

Im just so irritated at myself

and so confused

[Loopyfruit]

:bigarmhug:

does sound like you do have an eating disorder honey...and doesn't make any difference how long you have been denying it...well done for acknowledging it now..

....go and see your GP and they can advice you on where to get support and help

be gentle on yourself and this is the right place to be for support from people who care and know what you are going through

take care

loopyfruit x

[dixie]

Do not be disappointed with yourself, you should be proud that you can acknowledge what you are going through!

I agree with loopy that you should go to your GP or your therapist and talk about your eating problems, or perhaps get a few self help books from the library. I've recommended Overcoming Binge Eating in your other post which is useful for bulimics and coe

Be safe

Dixie