Katherine Posted February 20, 2005 Report Share Posted February 20, 2005 Tomorrow at 1 pm I've got the last meeting with my tutor before I finally and totally leave the therapy training course./college. (cos its too much for me, in case anyone doesn't know) Its a meeting to discuss what I've come up with to 'fill the gap' left. And to finalise stuff. Well, I've got a list together of creative writing courses and groups, tho I don't believe my writing is good enough... And part of me wants to do the teenage rebel bit and not go. But really its mainly I don't want to go because I am scared about endings and goodbyes and want to do it 'properly' and I might be too emotional or forget something(though I'll have to write a list). But I know I am brave and will manage it. Still would like a 'helping hand', someone to come along with me....anticipating leaving the college behind, closing the door, feeling empty and insecure and.....feeling that a bit now... ....but, without my meds I know I'd be far worse....so I have something to be thankful for.. karie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mycroft Posted February 20, 2005 Report Share Posted February 20, 2005 (((((karie))))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Katherine Posted February 21, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 ....thanks.....someone noticed...... maybe I'm just attention seeking..after today I won't mention the course again, so those of you who are really pissed off with me for going on about it can breathe a sigh of relief. I don't want to meet the tutor today, its just like 'rubbing my nose in it'---I've left, for God's sake. I made it through the last group with dignity, I want to leave it like that.... But then I have to tie up loose ends. And that she wants to see me again shows she does care. But I just feel like the opposite of King Midas--everything I touch turns to failure, turns to dust, through my grandiosity I think I am good at something, but in reality... My writing's abstract and noone understands it, why would I want to do creative writing? k. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted February 21, 2005 Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 Kari, no one is pissed off with you! Good luck today. I hope it goes well...you are in my thoughts hun. Love ya', LM :hug2: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Katherine Posted February 21, 2005 Author Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 Thanks Lady M. It's over! Its done! It was OK. I'm glad I had therapy beforehand. Might not have been so ok otherwise. I was-am! empowered! Here's to my writing a poetry book focused on Individuation and BPD---someday!!!! That's my aim, maybe... karie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyMacbeth Posted February 21, 2005 Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 Go for the gold Kari...you set your mind to something I knwo you can do it! Love, LM Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lauren Posted February 21, 2005 Report Share Posted February 21, 2005 :) (((((karie)))))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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