Roses Posted January 5, 2009 Report Share Posted January 5, 2009 There is a room where the dark consumes youA room where no light can be foundAlone and scared it preys on youUntil you are riddled with guilt.This bores holes in your skinIt turns and crawls through your fleshFrom outside you can see inDeep inside beyond the tissue.Inside it stops, momentarily pausesWhilst it thinks of where to goIt twists around to cause more painBefore it turns, slowly creeping into your head.As it moves it picks up debrisSmall bits of you that it has wreckedPulling it along it drags through your systemThe pain is blinding you as it moves.It reaches your skull and all becomes a blurLike a dream of a dream life goes onYou struggle on through the days and nightsBut living with such pain cannot be realReal it is though, and as you spiral downThe darkness starts screaming for youScreaming for you to let it take you over......for you to take your own life.You spiral dow Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
daisy duck Posted January 5, 2009 Report Share Posted January 5, 2009 thats a deep and intense....is this how you are feeling?xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Boy_Blue Posted January 5, 2009 Report Share Posted January 5, 2009 thats a deep and intense....is this how you are feeling?xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Hope you are ok.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
daisy duck Posted January 5, 2009 Report Share Posted January 5, 2009 :grouphug[1]: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Roses Posted January 5, 2009 Author Report Share Posted January 5, 2009 Yeah. That's in me. Thanks guys. Daisy you really made me laugh earlier (lick?) but it only lasts a short while at the moment and then I'm back with the dark again. Sorry. Am just not good at the moment and I don't want to bring you all down. Thanks to you as well Blue. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
daisy duck Posted January 5, 2009 Report Share Posted January 5, 2009 roses...dont be sorrygla i made you laugh but i wanna be there for you when you feel this wayxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Roses Posted January 5, 2009 Author Report Share Posted January 5, 2009 You are there and that makes a tremendous difference to me. Thank you. xxxxxxxxxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
daisy duck Posted January 5, 2009 Report Share Posted January 5, 2009 im glad.....as long as you know im there then thats fine with me.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jades Posted January 5, 2009 Report Share Posted January 5, 2009 sorry you feel this way im halucinating so i logged off but im here for you as much as i can be now hugs Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rael Posted January 5, 2009 Report Share Posted January 5, 2009 sorry you are feeling this way hun, i love the poem though. take care and pm me whenever xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Roses Posted January 6, 2009 Author Report Share Posted January 6, 2009 Thank u all. Woke up 3am with awful thoughts and feelings and seeing things moving in the room. Managed to sleep a little more but woke up with awful nightmares and I was just saying on here the other day I don't relly get nightmares much anymore. It was a stinker so stayed awake as too scared to go back to sleep. U are all really good to me and I appreciate it. xxxxxxxxxxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Boy_Blue Posted January 6, 2009 Report Share Posted January 6, 2009 Thank u all. Woke up 3am with awful thoughts and feelings and seeing things moving in the room. Managed to sleep a little more but woke up with awful nightmares and I was just saying on here the other day I don't relly get nightmares much anymore. It was a stinker so stayed awake as too scared to go back to sleep. U are all really good to me and I appreciate it. xxxxxxxxxxxxxHow are you now Rose? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wounded soul Posted January 6, 2009 Report Share Posted January 6, 2009 Rosesim so sorry youre feeling this bad,i had no idea that things were this bad for you,i hope you have some brighter moments soon.Take care wounded soul.xxxxxxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Roses Posted January 6, 2009 Author Report Share Posted January 6, 2009 Hi Blue. Am feeling awful and had awful day and having a fight with hubbie over something and have sh so just goes to prove I'm shit. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wounded soul Posted January 6, 2009 Report Share Posted January 6, 2009 youre not shit ws xxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Roses Posted January 6, 2009 Author Report Share Posted January 6, 2009 So I told him I had made a decision and he was a bit miffed. He's upset I didn't talk to him as my health affects us all. Basically I am now feeling like I am worth nothing and my feelings are worth nothing. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wounded soul Posted January 6, 2009 Report Share Posted January 6, 2009 You are worth something and youre feelings are really important as it is you thats feeling like this and not him.xxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rael Posted January 6, 2009 Report Share Posted January 6, 2009 you're not shit hun you are a great person so caring and thoughtful even when you are struggling yourself. you are worth so much and i care about you and your feelings so they do mean something. s/h'ing doesnt prove anything and def doesnt mean you are worth shit, think what you would say to me if i said that hun its a coping mechanism and sometimes no matter how much we hate doing it its something we needed at the time and couldnt see any other way. dont give up hun i know sometimes it can be hard to talk to partners but if you cant talk maybe you could write a poem or print out a post to show him how you are feelingtake carexxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Roses Posted January 6, 2009 Author Report Share Posted January 6, 2009 thanx guys. Rael, you are right if it was you I'd be saying you are not shit. I will think about this. I think it's been compounded by bad day and nightmares last night. Sure will feel better tomorrow. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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