walker Posted January 22, 2009 Report Share Posted January 22, 2009 nonepeople in my head tell me to do things, not to do them, shoulds and shouldn'tsbut what the hell is the point of doing anythinganything at all,everbut the good thing is, they tell me im not very depressed !! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted January 22, 2009 Author Report Share Posted January 22, 2009 prob better I take my misery out on myself, instead of replying to others atm, as I will just drag them downGo F*ck OFF BITCHMISERABLE COWDETESTABLE PIECE OF SH*Tyep, better at talking to me, as this is herthis is what she deservesevil people, we will destroy herwipe her outhate f*cking life hate f*ck occ healthhate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate ME Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted January 22, 2009 Author Report Share Posted January 22, 2009 perhaps someone will shoot her, or wipe her outshes not doing this for your attention, so forget that if you are already predjudicedshe is doing it to show the world the hatred inside her, sh in public I guesstrashing for all to see, no prideno respectno nothingno pointooo its pouring out of herbut she wil not get rid of us like this,we pervade her very beingshe can try hurling us into the public eyebut we continue to poison in private, to torment and destroy from the inside Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ClaireLittleWitch Posted January 22, 2009 Report Share Posted January 22, 2009 Oh Walker, you sound like you are in such a lot of pain...don't really know what to say except I hear you and am sending you love and lots of Take care honeyCLW xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rael Posted January 23, 2009 Report Share Posted January 23, 2009 wish i knew what to say hun, best i got is :bigarmhug[1]: :bigarmhug[1]: sorry you feeling so badxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
alison borland Posted January 23, 2009 Report Share Posted January 23, 2009 hey there... i hear you loud and clear. i have the same sort of feelings, but i do have 3 kids to pull myself togeather. dont know if you have anybody to help you through the hard times or just somebody to talk to. i find it easier to talk to people that i prob wont meet so if you ever want to get anybody to chat to, i'm here for you. we are all important in this life and maybe these illnesses are a way of making us strong......... please talk to me at, alison-borland@hotmail.com Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jades Posted January 23, 2009 Report Share Posted January 23, 2009 hugs walker xxxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted January 23, 2009 Author Report Share Posted January 23, 2009 yes Alison2 childrenThe only point, - everYou are good people Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Broken doll Posted January 24, 2009 Report Share Posted January 24, 2009 yes Alison2 childrenThe only point, - everYou are good peopleSo are you walker!!!you are a good person struggling and in despair!and that's alright! i know you don't believe me. but I believe you and I understand.hang in there, I'm here for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted January 24, 2009 Author Report Share Posted January 24, 2009 believe me, i am not as good as you think,but thank youyour kindness is appreciatedxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Broken doll Posted January 24, 2009 Report Share Posted January 24, 2009 I know you don't believe me, you are better than you think you are!!!but I understand your self doubt and self loathing keeps you feeling like you do, coz if you told me what I'm telling you wouldn't believe you either!(if that makes sense) we all have good and bad in us, it's what we choose to act on that makes us who we are! not how we feel. :unsure: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xHx Posted January 25, 2009 Report Share Posted January 25, 2009 We're here for you walkeryou're not a bad person, i know you feel that way but your not. i can totally relate to how your feeling though but trust me you'll find the good in yourself xHx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seaton Posted January 25, 2009 Report Share Posted January 25, 2009 Seems to me walker that if people are accessing your mind you need to work out how to let them into the thoughts you want them to suss and the thoughts that you don't. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Benway Posted January 26, 2009 Report Share Posted January 26, 2009 Hi walker,I have seen a HUGE change in you since you began posting -Then it seemed all bad days...Now you have both - can you see a pattern or trigger that makes you feel so bad?Sorry you are in the depths of it at the moment,I hope you wake up feeling brighter.I call myself those names and more, so do the voices, the others, you are not alone.I hope this is a temp blip for you - i rapid cycle and its a bitch.Wishing you wellTake care,Anne Marie x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jades Posted January 26, 2009 Report Share Posted January 26, 2009 how are u today walker? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted January 26, 2009 Author Report Share Posted January 26, 2009 yesterday we went to mum and dads, - just got backand I have found these messagesand I am deeply, deeply touchedit is a strange place for me to go, because I feel safe there, and yet in the depths of my mind there is still so much hurtI return confused and uncertain, very uncertain of my mh issues, and identity.but i found care concern and love, here, and it is so so very welcomeTHANKYOUxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
daisy duck Posted January 26, 2009 Report Share Posted January 26, 2009 glad your feeling a bit better walkerxxxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rael Posted January 26, 2009 Report Share Posted January 26, 2009 :bigarmhug[1]: xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted January 28, 2009 Author Report Share Posted January 28, 2009 goodness, an empty dayfinally put decorations in cupboardneed to walk dog, clean house, do washing, go shopping, - nobrain, empty,motivation - ZEROgrey outside, grey inside Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rael Posted January 28, 2009 Report Share Posted January 28, 2009 think i know what you mean about motivation. i have this week off and have done NOTHING i needed to. just cant no matter what i try. guess its a case of not thinking of everything that needs to be done, just focus on one thing that can be done, a step forwards that can be taken.xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted January 28, 2009 Author Report Share Posted January 28, 2009 hub said its because I am not at work, the people in my head say the sameI guess they are all rightthey constantly remind me of my failingsJust took dog out, said sorry to hub as i left, kept saying sorry,think he thought I was going for my final walk of life!!!!shame reallyit all seems such a giant waste of timereally very sorry for everything right nowjust sorry for being here at allsorry that i have a good life which i cant just give to someone who deserves it and would use it so gratefully Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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