angel tears Posted February 19, 2009 Report Share Posted February 19, 2009 Hi Today has been the third bad day in a row for me though i dont feel in a crisis right now. I have been having flashbacks for 3 days now from some abuse issues in my past, some of them mingling in my thoughts. I never dealt with one of them 12 years ago and just recently another issue has brought the old one up and i have been so up and down.I self harmed again today and sat in the bath drinking peach shnapps, the pain got too much.I did manage to talk a little to my bf about my pain and i feel a little calmer now, though still delicate as i put it.Didnt realise flashbacks could be so painful.Wonder if i felt "dirty" as it was a sexual issue, maybe the sh was because of this?.xxxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rael Posted February 20, 2009 Report Share Posted February 20, 2009 sorry you are struggling with this, i guess after a while if you bury things then it can be a shock if they resurface. well done for talking to your bf a little, even if you cant say much its good that you can let him know you are having trouble. feeling 'dirty' could be because its a sexual thing and sometimes any intrusive feelings or thoughts can leave you feeling dirty too, sexual or not. like you know they are not supposed to be there so it feels like they have invaded you. i hope you have taken care of the sh and can maybe try some distraction if you feel you might again. i know how overwhelming it can get sometimes, stay as safe as you can.xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
eve-naive Posted February 20, 2009 Report Share Posted February 20, 2009 :hug2: Thinking of you xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jades Posted February 20, 2009 Report Share Posted February 20, 2009 i feel yor pain hunny xxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Roses Posted February 20, 2009 Report Share Posted February 20, 2009 Wow, that is so good that you could speak to your bf about it. Well done you! The sh could be linked to feeling dirty but could be a release thing like pent up emotions. I was s/abused too and I sh. Flashbacks suck big time. I hpe you have taken care of your wounds and try distracting with something if you feel like it again. Talk to a professional about it. I am having cbt for it at moment and is really helping. xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
angel tears Posted February 20, 2009 Author Report Share Posted February 20, 2009 Hi Thanx for the replies . I have taken care of myself and today i feel "high". I should be seeing a shrink next week which is good, i will explain it to him then. xxxxx xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
daisy duck Posted February 20, 2009 Report Share Posted February 20, 2009 Hi Thanx for the replies . I have taken care of myself and today i feel "high". I should be seeing a shrink next week which is good, i will explain it to him then. xxxxx xxHi...glad that you are taking care of yourself...and feeling a little betterxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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