Fear

[x.glitter_raindrops.x]

heartbroken from all these things i've done,

I feel sick to my stomach, but time to move on,

ready to leave it all behind me,

but suffocating in fears of the way things still seem to be.

i trip, i stumble, ive fallen deep into this hole,

unsure and afriad, of how to escape it all,

no longer wish to be who i am,

ill in my mind, i ponder on life, and dont give a damn.

(not the way it should be, but i'm beginning to see)

dreams and hope beginning to appear,

could it be that the light at the end of the tunnel doth appear?

need to venture through the veil of black smoke that lies ahead,

but the uneasy feeling of the new unknown, am i alive or on my way to dead?

been blinkered and distorted for so long,

but now i see that its all so wrong,

how do i get out, how do i get through,

seeking my escape, what is it i need to do?

The darkness that clouds my deeds,

has become everything i know, something my body needs,

the damage it has caused, so many words i cant undo,

Im tainted, I cause pain everywhere i turn,

(I'm so sick, continually doubting and hurting you)

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[Rael]

thats great really seems to capture the feelings and pain of searching for a way to fix things

xxx