No One Knows......

[*elizabeth*]

No One Knows

i made a list of thoughts today,

that my heart has stollen from me.

i wondered what my life would be,

without my fear and pain.

i stood in the pouring rain today,

to see if i felt alive.

i bruised mt arms and legs today,

to show im still here inside.

i took too many meds today,

cause i know they dont work anymore.

i threw the rest in the bin,

il take the old ones after all.

i wrote ten poems today,

but ripped them all to peices.

they didnt say what i wanted them to say,

all i did was kept repeating.

i sat alone in silence today,

for about an hour and fifty.

i laughed at myself after that.

your such a fucking loser Lizzee!!!!!

i smoked two packets of fags today,

and then screwed cuz i had none left.

i did do my hair and make up today,

and thought "im an ugly cow"

i did make myself lunch today,

then thought "your a fat ugly cow"

i did write a poem on here today,

but now i feel even worse.

everything i did today,

means nothing.

my life is a blur........

x

[Rael]

thats really good. im sorry you feel so bad today, everything you do means something, sometimes it means you feel bad, sometimes it means you feel good, sometimes it means that you managed to get through the day. but it definitely means something.

xxx