AleBD Posted June 22, 2009 Report Share Posted June 22, 2009 Hello, I miss this place very much, wish I had more courage to come more often. The last days I've had problems, terrible anxiety attacks, mood swings and my addiction to Clonazepam has reached alarming levels. I can not miss it one day cos otherwise I am on the floor shaking. I decided I didnt wanna live like this. I looked for places for rehab and more focused therapy. Nothing in my State but at this point I wouldnt care to go a bit far away to get better. Anyway, I dont know if it will happen cos it seems my mum has the last word...Today I had a terrible crisis, it was father's day and I felt down and dizzy so I couldnt make it to dinner with family. while I was telling my mum over the phone that I didnt feel well I felt sooo guilty (that I had been feeling so bad I didnt get my dad's present) that I started crying non stop till I went "crazy" and lost touch with reality. I was screaming so loud like if I was trying to release all my feelings with it (not words, real screams). Suddenly my parents were here trying to take me to a mental hospital. I refused cos I was too scared of meds they would give me (I am allergic to some). It was a crazy day. I am so so embarrassed. However I have decided to put an end to this addiction but I am terrified of how I will feel. I will be in a "Oasis" program. Will it hurt very much? will I be unbearably uncomfortable?Pls help me.Thanks Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Benway Posted July 2, 2009 Report Share Posted July 2, 2009 hi, if you are going on a klonopin / any benzo program, theywill titrate the dose down slowly.of the benzos, klonopin &valium have the longest half lives, but they will still probably switch you over to valium, slowly.im just guessing here- but this is the 'norml' way to take ppl down of benzos.please google prof. heather ashton or the ashton taper.join www.benzobuddies.org (com?) a site dedicated to tapering with many recovered benzo addicts there to give you good advice.i can relate to you- i am physically and mentally addicted to benzos and methadone.(methadone for pain after my ins ran out after a car crash oin 04, and been on benzos for anxiety- since 01.)i have fibromylgia now, its got so bad that typing hurts. also agoraphobic. i want to be off these meds too, but i think its not the righ time yet.best regardsanne marie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AleBD Posted July 3, 2009 Author Report Share Posted July 3, 2009 Thanks so so much for answering Anne Marie. I started my detox this week and I was ok till Dr only allowed me to take 5 drops of Rivo. I am taking Lyrica to replace it. Today I have felt like a zombie, been to nervous hell and back. I am super anxious and I keep telling myself I cant let myself down and take more drops to feel better.I will take a look at the link, sounds like what I need. I know ab Meth too. But that´s past. BTW, my auntie takes Lyrica for her fibromylgia and she is so much happier. I am sure u will find the right moment to get off those drugs, like I did.Thanks again for your help, feel free to write me when you need it.Adriana Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Benway Posted July 6, 2009 Report Share Posted July 6, 2009 hi adriana i hope you are ok. you are terribly sweet, you will make it thru, benzobuddies has heard everystory- every symptom, etc. its a good positive place. (too posivite for me, i hang on to benzos like a drowning man to a log. bad annemarie. pls keep us updated? im glad you 'are back'- i hadn't met you before. very best wishes. bb will give u practical info fot tapering. - salt baths, dont take vits B t all- (they stimulate the nervous system), saunas if u can manage- gets the grot out quicker, but dont go too fast, or you could end up with paws. no, not doggie feet- *giggle*--- post acute withdrawl syndrome-(nothing to laugh at actually) get info on this- You want it as much as u want a dental abcess. take care xxx anne marie ps- cn i ask what dosage of klon you were on,are now on- and the time frame since? i would write more but shoulders ffkked and so is keyboard grrrr) ty for the lyrica suggestion- i need something, so am gonna try it. fook my anti-med attitude, bpd, eh? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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