Not Breathing

[fairytales817]

I want to feel something I can understand

I want to feel real

I want to be given enough time

I want to be able to heal

But nothing can erase everything in my heart

Because too many nights I've cried

And nothing seems to work anymore

It's like there's nothing left inside

I'm walking down an endless road now

I'm falling down a bottomless pit

I'm thinking but have no thoughts

I'm dying a little more with every hit

No matter what I do it's not enough

I know now that I'm too lost

Too far down to get back up

And I want to get out at any cost

I'm walking nowhere but in circles

Not I have ever done has mattered

Nothing seems to make any sense

And every day my thoughts get more scattered

No matter how hard I try

Every day brings more devistation

I'm only falling farther down

And I wonder what happened to my determination

So now as the thoughts swirl in me head

Everything is so deceiving

No matter how hard I inhale

I feel like I'm not breathing

[fairytales817]

Recklessly abandoning everything I ever loved

Jumping off the bridge a little too far

I can't make sound come out of my mouth

I always seem to be raising the bar

Because trying just isn't enough

Close to perfection is so imperfect

Simply trying gets me nowhere

Pushing myself to the very edge

I vanish into thin air

Perfection isn't enough

[Betsy]

Anna,

very good poem but i hope this is one you wrote at another time. you seemed to be so up today and last night i hope u r not feeling this way.

take care of you

bets

[fairytales817]

Acctually I wrote this over a year ago.

[fairytales817]

The second one I wrote in math class months ago.