budgie Posted July 19, 2004 Report Share Posted July 19, 2004 It was wrong to begin with. It was doomed. It would have happened anyway, a question of time. He never is meant to be in my life. Just a passing, refreshing breeze. Brought me joy, and anguish too. Temporal in time, eternal in memory. It was not unexpected. But I will surely miss him. It is not right, morally, and I dont have any valid excuse. I can think of a million reasons, BPD etc, but no, none will stand. I have made a commitment, and it is for me to keep. If I had been shortchanged somewhere, there are other areas which more then made up for it. It is just that I had a fall now. I stumbled. Today will not be easy. Neither the next few days I forsee. I will MANAGE. I will. As I did. Yes. Medications. No. Not OD. I dont do that. Just to blank me out. Yes. I hate BPD. I hate relationships. I hate being here. But I am staying. Budgie :angry: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fairytales817 Posted July 19, 2004 Report Share Posted July 19, 2004 Staying because we have nowhere else to go. I love you, Budg!!! *hugs* Don't give up. It's all crazy. I know. I want to be here for you just like you are here for me. You *can* be ok. I love you tons. *extra hugs for my one and only budgie!* Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Betsy Posted July 19, 2004 Report Share Posted July 19, 2004 You will be okay! we are all here for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
budgie Posted July 19, 2004 Author Report Share Posted July 19, 2004 Thank you my dearest friends. I am STILL here, and WILL be here. I just slept on and off 24 hrs (w/o meds mind you!) LOL. It jus sux. But I hang on to my life's mantra below very well. Yes, it'll pass, just that I dont. Argh...ok ok...I'll be fine. So u see, there is this streak that keeps popping up that I just need to manage....BAH. Ever experience a friend leaving coz you are just too nice? *Great big sigh. You just cant win in life can you? You lose either way. I dunno anymore. I never knew in the first place. I'll go back into my rabbit hole. Ciao. Bud :unsure: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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