New Mental Health Person

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The person who I usually see won't be around for sometime I'm told so they are sending anoher person in her place.

It's three weeks since I had a talk with someone.

The lady who came was nice enough but I could barely look at her.

At one point i felt tears coming and i apologised, she said If you need to cry you should let it out.

I can't do this I have like an off switch and if I try to cry it constricts my throat, Its like a leaky tap it just quietly drops occasionally.

I told her the whole saga of my H wanting to leave his awful anger and the innapropriate behaviour of man towards me.

I kept losing my thread as voices started to interrupt me also I think I'm quite depressed and I just couldn't think of what to say to her.

I get the feeling that no body really wants to visit me, because I get pushed from pillar to post.

This is supposed to be my day off but I have such a huge workload I keep thinking I should get on with it and ignore my tiredness.

Slept with H last night, didn't want him to feel rejected yet again, couldn't be present though.

I guess I should just do that a few times a week maybe then he'll be Happy.

Bumble