Dani Posted June 6, 2010 Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 'You don't know me...you just know who ive portrayed, so scared of being hurt again ..to have my trust betrayed. I kept asking myself what you wanted from me...why be my friend? why speak to me out of everyone..it must be all be pretend. Never has a man talked to me without wanting me in return... never have i let myself open up without being burned. You asked how i was feeling like you really wanted to know.. you knew when i was crying even when i'd try not to let it show. i didn't get it...i just didn't understand, but my feelings getting involved was never planned. i wasn't even sure if they were real... all i know is i should have used my time to heal. i can never explain how much it meant for you to call... the day i lost my dad when all i wanted to do was fall. you actually made me smile...and for that hour i was okay, but all the hurt came back everytime u went away. i wanted to be there for you and gainst your trust too... i wanted to get to know everything about you. but being me i thought you would to the same... leave when you got bored and play mind games. but it was me who caused the hurt insteaad... letting you get caught up in the tangled web in my head. i only end up hurting those i care for...i know its true. i didnt want to lose you but i didnt want to hurt you too. The last person i opened up to just wanted me in bed... i tarred you with the same brush when i should have just listened instead. i have never met a man with your morals and your heart... im sos sorry i didnt realise all this right at the start. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Roses Posted June 6, 2010 Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 (((((((((((((((((((Dani))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dani Posted June 6, 2010 Author Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 thanks for the hugs. i sometimes wish i could say these things without hiding behind my computer using words that rhyme.xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pink stars Posted June 6, 2010 Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 xx (((((((((Dani)))))))))) xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Roses Posted June 6, 2010 Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 Some of the best poems don't rhyme but they have rhythm and yours have that in abundance. Can you read this to someone you trust? Would it help to get it out there? xxxxxxxxxxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dani Posted June 6, 2010 Author Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 right now i feel a wave of emotion...one i usually react to. my T says to write this down-look at it rationally when i feel this way. so thats what im going to do.xxthe emotion is anger at myself and a bit of helplessness. not love----for a change. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dani Posted June 6, 2010 Author Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 Some of the best poems don't rhyme but they have rhythm and yours have that in abundance. Can you read this to someone you trust? Would it help to get it out there? xxxxxxxxxxxxx ive sent it to the person it is for ...so im glad its out if you know what i mean. i may let my T read a few of my poems.the darker ones i dont tend to post on here. thanks roses xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Roses Posted June 6, 2010 Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 that is a good plan to write down these emotions and look at them. I used to keep sheets and sheets of stuff when doing the CBT and when we looked bak at it in sessions I got so much out of it. Could you read your poems to your t??? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Silverwolf Posted June 6, 2010 Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 ((((Dani)))) It's good to get the emotions out when able. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dani Posted June 6, 2010 Author Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 thanks guys. roses...i am going too.im bringing forward my appt if she can fit me in.i need to talk to someone who wont judge.(in rl) xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
*Summer* Posted June 6, 2010 Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 (((((Dani))))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dani Posted June 6, 2010 Author Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 ty for the hugs and support everyone xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
successful_workthru Posted June 6, 2010 Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 Dani You have a poetic talent, but sorry you are in so much pain. SW Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dani Posted June 6, 2010 Author Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 thank you SW.i am okay...this is just something i needed to write. xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Roses Posted June 6, 2010 Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 I'm so glad you are going to talk to your t bout it hun, and well done on making the decision to bring it forward. Best of luck with it all xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dani Posted June 6, 2010 Author Report Share Posted June 6, 2010 thanks roses xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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