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I thought I would share a poem I wrote last year and see if anyone has any comments on it.

Can't breathe.

Can't focus.

These feelings are too overwhelming,

the rage inside is so hard to hide.

The rage hides the sadness and tears.

The rage protects me in a way.

But I don't know how to contol it.

I feel as if it controls me.

Can't breathe.

Can't focus.

Can't see, past the rage and the fear of feeling the pain.

To unbearable,

to excruciating,

to much for anyone to deal with or have to try to process.

Try to breathe but it gets stuck in my chest.

Try to focus but my mind is full of anxiety.

Can't see cause my eyes are full of tears.

Can't feel cause I'm scared it will hurt.

Can't deal cause it's all to much.

TRAPPED, in this empty space of my mind.

It's empty cause it's lost,

I'm lost,

I'm in limbo,

I'm confused,

I'm scared,

I feel alone in this madness.

Do I even make sense????

Or are these just the words of a crazy women who has seen to much,

felt to much and is slowly loosing her mind,

her innocense,

her faith,

her life.

Lost in my mind,

scared and can't find my way out.

Welcome to MY world!

Everything's been taken away.

Got nowhere to hide now.

The wound is open once again,

festering,

rotting,

wanting to be healed.

Can't breathe.

Can't Focus.

Can't See.

The wound really hurts.

It's cut really deep.

Might need stitches,

but there's no needle or thread.

It hurts.

Hold my breathe,

squeeze my hands,

tap my feet.

Can't breathe.

My mind keeps playing this broken record over and over again.

Can't see.

Everything’s all mixed up,

doesn't make sense.

Can't focus.

Can't keep on this track.

Too much, can't live!

Can live, but find it so hard.

My heart aches, my mind is numb.

this will too live I find it hard to fight.

This will to fight I find it hard to live

Abbey