Brokenbutterfly Posted June 11, 2010 Report Share Posted June 11, 2010 I subconciously don't allow myself worthy things.. Meds, food, clothes, even down to my own housework. My latest battle is the food .. I just can't be botherd to cook or eat. I snack on bits here and there drink coffee (lots) but meals depress me. My weight is curently 8st 7lbs I am tall so need to be more but I am really battling with eating hate it lothe it. The feeling of any food I just want to go and get rid of it. Not because I want be thin. I am due some major dental work soon and this is terrifing me also I'm haveing nightmares about my mouth and past stuff. This is not helping me to want to eat Do you guys have any suggestions ?? Or am I similar to another? Bb x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted June 11, 2010 Report Share Posted June 11, 2010 i can totally relate to you reasoning over this i do it too big time with everything although with the food i tend to deny myself good healthy food and eat rubbish as a punishment hence i am very very far from your weight !!! i really dont know what to suggest as it is a huge trap for me i am sorry you are going through this tho' perhaps things will ease once the dental issue is resolved xxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Brokenbutterfly Posted June 11, 2010 Author Report Share Posted June 11, 2010 I am hoping your right.. Also I never really feel hunger.. Is this common? With abuseive childhoods ? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted June 11, 2010 Report Share Posted June 11, 2010 i dont really know i do know that for a long time - as a child - i had problems swallowing food, due to anxiety and stress at meal times and that happens sometimes now, too Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Brokenbutterfly Posted June 11, 2010 Author Report Share Posted June 11, 2010 My issues in early childhood were starvation my mother used to not let me eat .. I was only allowed certain things . Also from about 3 I had to basicaly fend alone .. I could boil eggs and make toast.. But wasn't allowed too if I was given food I had to eat it all if I didn't I was not allowed anything else until that was finished .. I have one memory of mouldy veg being served back to me .. I only remeber this because ifthe beating I got after I had eaten it Then in later life it's sexual abuse mouth issues... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted June 11, 2010 Report Share Posted June 11, 2010 sorry i dont kwno not my experianeces xxxxxxxx sorry Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Brokenbutterfly Posted June 11, 2010 Author Report Share Posted June 11, 2010 Thankyou for the reply no need for sorry !! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
walker Posted June 11, 2010 Report Share Posted June 11, 2010 ((((((BB)))))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
notawallflower Posted June 12, 2010 Report Share Posted June 12, 2010 It's related because we don't learn how to regulate our body's needs like a child in a normal home would. And -YES- I went off the deep end last time I had dental work. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Brokenbutterfly Posted June 12, 2010 Author Report Share Posted June 12, 2010 My latest nightmares are terrifiing me the thing is I have to go.. But I'll be alone.. Then I have to gointo hospital and have more ... :,( Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theburningcat Posted June 13, 2010 Report Share Posted June 13, 2010 I have exactly the same problem with food. I don't really know what to suggest but maybe it helps knowing you're not the only one. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Crow Posted June 13, 2010 Report Share Posted June 13, 2010 My issues in early childhood were starvation my mother used to not let me eat .. I was only allowed certain things . Also from about 3 I had to basicaly fend alone .. I could boil eggs and make toast.. But wasn't allowed too if I was given food I had to eat it all if I didn't I was not allowed anything else until that was finished .. I have one memory of mouldy veg being served back to me .. I only remeber this because ifthe beating I got after I had eaten it Then in later life it's sexual abuse mouth issues... Sorry to read that. (((Hugs))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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