michaelkkk Posted June 28, 2010 Report Share Posted June 28, 2010 Hey I have this awful thoughts all about how helpless I am, how weak I am that noone understands me. I can't work because of it I suppose my BPD and depression is getting worse I don't know what to do. I can't sleep, I can't wake up, I can't stop drinking alcohol. Tomorrow I am going to psychiatrist, I am afraid of going to hospital again. I feel like everyone is looking at me and laughing, I can't look into peoples eyes. I don't feel like having sex, I even leave my partner and sleep in other room. I don't want him to look at me. He even said that he can't help me, he doesn't know how. I wanna run, run as fast as I can so far away. I am afraid of being fired from work because of all these chaos in my head, I do less and I make more mistakes I've had self harmed and one girl from my company saw it, and of course I lied that, nothing happened. I feel like I need rehab or something I don't know. I don't know anything. What to do? Suppose my medicines don't work. I'm so lost I don't even know what to say to my doctor. I had to tell that someone or write it somewhere :( Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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